It's no wonder....
It's no wonder I tried to kill myself a couple of weeks ago. I really don't think that I am liked. I have what I think is a nice personal ad on Biggercity, a posting on Bear411.com. On Bear411 the have a new thing where someone can sigh your "guestbook". It seems that mine is the ONLY one no one as bothered to write anything nice. When I go to chub and chase events I am ignored like I have the plague or something. I am so damned lonely, and that's all I could even think of when I took that overdose the other weekend. I miss some friends from the east. It's a totally different way of life in the east. I just wish it weren't so hard to move. I want some companionship so badly right now. No, not a "relationship" quite yet, just someone to do things with, even if we just were to stay home and catch a movie. Someone to give me a hug when I'm down. And heck, maybe even cuddle. I just want to be happy and it's really bothering me that I am still not there. Oh well, guess I should try to sleep so I can get up for that job I hate tomorrow.