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I had an awesome weekend... I just couldn't enjoy it to its full extent... there has been way too much on my mind.... my uncle passed away on friday...and i was not able to attend his funeral because I was down at wildwood... I really wanted to go to the funeral but school would have killed me for missing too many days, and I really needed the vacation in wild wood.... second thing that has been on my mind, is about a certain someone, and if you know then you know... I made a huge mistake... I put some feelings where they did not belong... I scared away the one beautiful and sacred thing in my life, due to my own inscurities.... now she won't talk to me.. I have her friends wanting to kill me, yelling at me via text messaging... I deserve it though... I understand that I hurt her, and I want her to know I care for her as much as I always have... I am sorry for what I have done... notes that have been written.... I did not feel as i said in those notes... I thoguht maybe if I wrote those notes that somehow everything would be fixed, but I did not mean what I wrote... I wrote it in hopes of an answer to what has been plaguing me... but to me my feelings of ill disposition were a foreshadow of what was soon to happen with my uncle... I knew something was going to happen but I didn't know what... me and you being broken off was i thought me not delaying the inevitable... but I was wrong... I made a mistake... I am sorry... It will not happen again... but if you feel that it might.. I will leave you alone like i have been instructed by your friends... please just talk to me face to face... there is no sincerity with these writings... I need you to look into my eyes and tell me that you don't want to be with me, and that you want me to leave you alone... please?