Zutto ch. 12
ZUTTO
Subaru Mitsuki
Yamada Ryosuke
Inoo Kei
Tomoya Haru
Chapter 12:
The next day, Ryosuke went to school feeling very sad. He can’t figure out why Mituki didn’t come. He thought that he’ll gonna tell her his feelings now. When he reached his classrom’s door, Mitsuki is waiting for him.
“Ohayou, Yama-chan!” she greeted. He was surprised that she called him Yama-chan again. He looked at her but he didn’t greet her back. He went to his seat and bow his head on his desk.
Start of Flashback
3 years ago..
“Ya.ma.chan! We’re friends now ne? We’ve known each other since Primary level but we’re still not friend.” She said.
“I already told you about what I think. I’m not going to repeat myself again.”
“hmp! I didn’t hear it properly. You’re eating your lunch and your mouth is full that’s why I can’t understand a single word you’re saying.”
He glared at her but she’s still smiling at him. She held out her little finger into a pinky promise position. He looked at it and after a while, he placed his little finger to hers and said,
“Okay, FRIENDS. But starting from now, don’t call me Yama-chan. Just Ryosuke or Ryo. Maybe, when someone already proposed to you, you could call me that again. Promise?”
“Why is that?!”
“because we’re friends now and I should know everything.”
“Well.. okay! I promise, Ryo.”
End of Flashback
Ryosuke’s POV
“Why did she call me that again?” I thought.
“Yama-chan, is there something wrong?” she asked me.
I shook my head.
“Hm. But-“ she was cut off when she heard Inoo was calling her.
I looked at them while talking and I feel very guilty that it almost breaks my heart. The class started immediately when sensei came. I was not in a good mood today and I can’t concentrate in my class. The pain’s eating my heart. I could feel that I would die soon because of this pain. I want to get her back. But what should I do?
After school, sensei discussed us very late. She’s saying so much nonsense things that are not connected at the lesson. Mitsuki walked with me going home. I’m not speaking to her because of what happened last night. I know she knows that I’m mad but she doesn’t want to ask me. Meanwhile, she stopped and I looked at her.
“Yama-chan.. ano, can we go to that playground just for awhile?” she pointed at the nearby playground.
We went there, sat at the swing but no one’s still talking.
“Let’s just stay here a little longer. Is that okay?”
I nodded.
“Actually, I do understand why you’re like that. Because I didn’t come yesterday ne? your timing is bad. That time when you called, I’m with Inoo-kun.”
I looked at her and I can see that she’s happy. “He’s in the middle of his proposal”
My heart sunk in pain. Inoo-kun defeated me. Why do he have to win against me?!
“What did you said?”
“What else should I say? Of course, I said yes.”
Why this have to happen?! Why I didn’t confess to her earlier?! We’ve been always together but why I can’t even tell her that I love her?! Why do I have to lose her?!
“I wanted to tell you about it since you’re my best friend. By the way, on Saturday we’re going to leave Japan for Dubai. He said that he still want to spend his summer with me even in the last minute. Haii.. time really flies ne?”
I stood up and said, “Iku. It’s getting dark right now.”
We continued walking towards her house.
“It’s still summer but the winds at night is absolutely cold.”
I grabbed her hand and hold it.
“Much better?” I asked.
“Hai.. much better.”
Even starting from now, she’s not mine anymore; I still want to hold her hand tightly. I don’t want to let her go. I LOVE HER. I REALLY, REALLY DO LOVE HER. Why did I allow fate to happen this? I still don’t want to lose her. I will ever find another woman better than her.
When we reached their house, I opened the gate for her.
“So.. Ja~ne!” she waved goodbye but she still didn’t move. She just stared at me.
“Hey, is there really something wrong?” she asked me and lifted my head slowly so that she could look straight into my eyes.
I tried not to look at her because tears are starting to flow into my eyes.
“Come on. Tell me.”
Should I tell her? But I know, nothing will ever change even thought I’ll confess to her now. Demo.. she should know at least that I love her and that love will never fade away..
I pulled her with me and embraced her tightly.
“EVERYTHING’S WRONG! This shouldn’t be happening!”
“huh? What do you mean? Wait.. I can’t breathe.” She struggled.
I even tightened my hug to her. I don’t want to let her go. “Dai, Dai, Daisuki Mitsuki! I know it’s already too late.. but I want you to be mine. All these years we’ve been together, I’ve always loved you! Please don’t be engaged to Inoo-kun. I won’t be able to go on with my life without you. So stay by my side forever and ever.”
“Enough! Please stop, Ryo.”
I let go a little and looked at her. She looked so serious and disappointed.
“If you really love me, you should have confessed to me earlier! I should’ve never accepted Inoo’s proposal. You’re such a coward Ryo!” she pushed me and went inside their house.
I went back to the playground and sat at the swing again. I pulled out a small box from my bag and opened it.
“haii.. I thought that in the end, she’ll be mine but I lost. The battle’s over.” I said as I look at the ring Mitsuki picked from Okinawa.
There’s nothing I could do about this but to accept it right? But will I ever gonna let go her? Will I ever forget the love I have for her?
-END-
Sequel:: ZUTTO: Friend Of Mine