Jan 14, 2006 21:50
I feel like I'm not being myself anymore. Whatever myself is. I think I should stop doing that bullshit. I feel like I'm missing out on something I could be doing like, not being such a fake. People often don't realize how cynical and sardonic I can really be. I'm kinda tired of being everyone else. It's time to be me now.
Does anyone else know what I'm saying about when I talk about how when you look into the bottom of an empty glass, there's always a shadow of an ass in there? You know what I'm talking about, don't act like you don't. I AM down, I got the 4-11.
School is for crap. I'm ready to be fuckin' outta there. I wish I could be like some lucky BITCHES and not have to be there still hanging around because I'm not 'already graduated and think I'm hott shit for it' *grumble*... I STILL have to order my cap and gown. I think Jordan can sympathize with me there. My mind is always elswhere. If I weren't such a refugee, I'd probably be outta there like some people we know. I'm a bright girl, but I am tricked by, myself (who else?), into thinking I'm not because I'm just plain lazy, and in my mind mind lazy, often = dumb.
I need to get to stealing some more music. So, if anyone has any suggestions, tell me, and I'll tell you how crappy your music tastes are and move on to the next commendation. I am finding that some of the only artists I don't skip over when listening to my ipod are Jamie Cullum and Ani DiFranco when I know that there are plenty more perfectly suitable choices left in my insufficient music library. But then there are other times where I am greatful to have the occasional Radiohead or Weezer melody pop up sometimes unexpectedly.
You guys should think about that ass in the glass thing. Seriously.