just totally venting...
why do i feel like nothing i do is ever good enough for my family...i think im more selfish than i think...i thought that having 2 almost full time jobs, adding up to close to 70 hrs a week, plus taking a night class meant that my family understood that i would not be home most of the time, and that it would almost be like living at school. but apparently, although my aunt says shes proud of me, that im doing this for myself, not to benefit anyone else, and all i ever do when i actually have free time is things for myself, like my computer, or going out with friends. i guess i shouldnt have time to myself since this was my choice to work like crazy. maybe i should entertain the kids when i have free time, cuz apparently, just being here with them isnt good enough for them. i do appreciate having a nice dinner to heat up every night when i get home at 11, so i dont have to cook myself something and be up later. and i appreciate the fact that my aunt and uncle are helping buy small things for the apartment this year, and they are getting me a full size bed like i wanted. im just frustrated.im sorry, next time i miss my laundry day (sat) cuz i have to work alllll day, ill just have to find an 24-hour laundry mat to do my clothes at...cuz i guess hand washing my clothes but using the dryer in the morning counts as using it on not my day. i feel like such an inconvience. im mad, and i just want to move out. im so independant, but i still have to live by silly rules, and i dont want to...
i want to go back to school..
i want to go back to school..