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i went to bed early last night and did a LOT of thinking before I went to bed... I had so much stuff to think about I stayed up until like midnight at least (about 4 hours...) just thinking about everything and trying to sort things out cause i had soo much stuff to think about, anyway it helped so much, like i slept horrible.. well not that bad but i woke up about 5 different times to move and turn and stuff and usualy i go to bed and i'm dead out until i wake up in the morning but i woke up early and wasn't really that tired during school and i dunno, i'm not nearly as stressed today and that makes me so happy... i'm really glad i went to bed because i was tempted by the offer to just unleash and vent everything out to rachel which i almost took her up on but then i thought that a lot of the stuff i didnt even know where to start on.. so yeah, i still have a lot of stuff on my mind but its got a lot more direction now and i feel better and therefore its not affecting me as much. and today i just tried to not think about it at all.. oh, that's not true, i lied, i thought about it all day, but not in a bad stressed out way, just kinda in a completely awake, how do i really feel way, and i feel even better. then we went to wendys for lunch. good food, yum. then i spent 6th period with brianna which was awesome because it was so nice to be able to just not have to worry about anything and just screw around and walk around outside (it was sooo nice out today) for a period and yeah, that helped a lot too thanks brianna for calling me outta class :) anyway, then we hit the DIRT ohh... my... god... i love the dirt, it was so amazing, i didnt run because my body still feels really weak na dshit and i didnt throw either but i took infield and it was beaaaaaautiful... i wish i would've had my regular glove with me cause it wouldve been all that much better (TOMORROW)... but anyway, i forgot how much i love softball, and i'm soexcited for this season to start, i dont give a fuck about all the drama that's going on, all i know is i wanna play. and it's gonna be good. and i'm pumped. and i'm gonna field. and hit. and wow. its gonna be amazing.
annnnnyway, i am excited for tomorrow.. got a little photographing, a little geology (not so ecxcite about that) and a little hollywood and its gona be good. i'm gona go now but i hope to talk to all of you lovely people later,
by the way brianna...
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i went to bed early last night and did a LOT of thinking before I went to bed... I had so much stuff to think about I stayed up until like midnight at least (about 4 hours...) just thinking about everything and trying to sort things out cause i had soo much stuff to think about, anyway it helped so much, like i slept horrible.. well not that bad but i woke up about 5 different times to move and turn and stuff and usualy i go to bed and i'm dead out until i wake up in the morning but i woke up early and wasn't really that tired during school and i dunno, i'm not nearly as stressed today and that makes me so happy... i'm really glad i went to bed because i was tempted by the offer to just unleash and vent everything out to rachel which i almost took her up on but then i thought that a lot of the stuff i didnt even know where to start on.. so yeah, i still have a lot of stuff on my mind but its got a lot more direction now and i feel better and therefore its not affecting me as much. and today i just tried to not think about it at all.. oh, that's not true, i lied, i thought about it all day, but not in a bad stressed out way, just kinda in a completely awake, how do i really feel way, and i feel even better. then we went to wendys for lunch. good food, yum. then i spent 6th period with brianna which was awesome because it was so nice to be able to just not have to worry about anything and just screw around and walk around outside (it was sooo nice out today) for a period and yeah, that helped a lot too thanks brianna for calling me outta class :) anyway, then we hit the DIRT ohh... my... god... i love the dirt, it was so amazing, i didnt run because my body still feels really weak na dshit and i didnt throw either but i took infield and it was beaaaaaautiful... i wish i would've had my regular glove with me cause it wouldve been all that much better (TOMORROW)... but anyway, i forgot how much i love softball, and i'm soexcited for this season to start, i dont give a fuck about all the drama that's going on, all i know is i wanna play. and it's gonna be good. and i'm pumped. and i'm gonna field. and hit. and wow. its gonna be amazing.
annnnnyway, i am excited for tomorrow.. got a little photographing, a little geology (not so ecxcite about that) and a little hollywood and its gona be good. i'm gona go now but i hope to talk to all of you lovely people later,
by the way brianna...
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!