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i've realized that maybe iam not as emotional as i thought i was, i just had an intense bonding/crying session with emily jacky and melissa and i think iam emotionally stunted its insane, they were all crying and i was tearing up but i couldnt cry wut the fuck is wrong with me, the last time i got a good cry doesnt really count because it was like a drunken cry and i probably wouldnt have cried if that hadnt happened. then we talked about religion which was an interesting topic i brought up how i was talking to this guy and i was like yeah i've kinda had the urge to go to church lately and he was like yeah lets not talk about this and hes this other religion i forget what it was so then whn i told my friends that before we just started to talk about it.
my friends say iam the peacemaker in the group i like to make excuses for everyone and try to mediate the situtaion which is what i do, i do it at home with my siblings and its just who iam i hate when people fight and everyone has a reaon for doing what they do, hm maybe i should look into maybe going into a feild where i would be the "peacemaker", iam also stressing about what to do with the rest of my life, iam thinking of doing a double major with english and psychology, but i feel like they are such broad topics and iam scared iam going to spend 4 years in college and then come out and have no job, i also want to study abroad i would love to study in italy, france, britain, greece, theres so many places i would love to go and iam so excited to study abroad. iam kind of considereing becoming an ra but then i feel if i do i would be seperated from all my friends and i would miss out late night bonding sessions.
i made my schedule today it so far iam taking
comp, american lit, family perspectives, american hist, and biology
iam looking to drop family perspectives, and biology, my earth science tutor was like u should take geology and than have me as a tutor again and i guess i gave him an no way in hell look cos he was like haha ur totally looking for a way to say no.
cant wait to come home and for finals to be over, i have 3 papers due next week so i will be spending the whole weekend in the library, but hopefully going out tomorrow for "group therapy" haha ill only go out if its after greys lol iam such a dork, but last thursday we went out and it waspretty fun, i spent 6$ on drinks at the bar which i guess isnt too bad but i cant keep going cos i kno i will, cant wait for the week to be over and the weekend to come.
my friends say iam the peacemaker in the group i like to make excuses for everyone and try to mediate the situtaion which is what i do, i do it at home with my siblings and its just who iam i hate when people fight and everyone has a reaon for doing what they do, hm maybe i should look into maybe going into a feild where i would be the "peacemaker", iam also stressing about what to do with the rest of my life, iam thinking of doing a double major with english and psychology, but i feel like they are such broad topics and iam scared iam going to spend 4 years in college and then come out and have no job, i also want to study abroad i would love to study in italy, france, britain, greece, theres so many places i would love to go and iam so excited to study abroad. iam kind of considereing becoming an ra but then i feel if i do i would be seperated from all my friends and i would miss out late night bonding sessions.
i made my schedule today it so far iam taking
comp, american lit, family perspectives, american hist, and biology
iam looking to drop family perspectives, and biology, my earth science tutor was like u should take geology and than have me as a tutor again and i guess i gave him an no way in hell look cos he was like haha ur totally looking for a way to say no.
cant wait to come home and for finals to be over, i have 3 papers due next week so i will be spending the whole weekend in the library, but hopefully going out tomorrow for "group therapy" haha ill only go out if its after greys lol iam such a dork, but last thursday we went out and it waspretty fun, i spent 6$ on drinks at the bar which i guess isnt too bad but i cant keep going cos i kno i will, cant wait for the week to be over and the weekend to come.