...it's gonna take a little time...
Ok, so the last post was super sad and depressing, but this one wont be so bad...Thanks to the peeps who posted comments, I love you guys! :-)
So in my last post, my world was falling apart around me and it's still a bit frazzled, but it is not quite as bad. I talked to both people I was having this dilemma with and as much as I feel like I gave in, I kind of felt like I had to. I was so miserable and I still kind of am, but I am working through it the best way I can. I told them both that it would take me some time to feel completely better and it will, believe me, but there is really nothing else I can do. I know the whole thing is going to be close to impossible for me, even though I said I would try my best to not let it bother me, but in all honesty, it's really not something that just goes away in a couple days. It's really going to take me a while to be okay with the whole situation and Im so afraid of how it's all going to work out. Already they seem to be moving forward and as much as I want to be so psyched for them and just smile, it's so hard because I feel as if I am going to take on the role of a third wheel very, very soon and Im just not ready for it. It may seem like I should be able to just let this whole thing go, but for some reason I cant. However, i do feel better than I did when I wrote my last post. I will eventually be able to look back at all this and laugh, but right now, I'm going to work through all of it the best I can. Below I have pasted a quote that I have really latched onto the past couple days and I really do believe it is true.
~*As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.*~
So, from here on out, I am really going to try to be happy...wish me luck!
So in my last post, my world was falling apart around me and it's still a bit frazzled, but it is not quite as bad. I talked to both people I was having this dilemma with and as much as I feel like I gave in, I kind of felt like I had to. I was so miserable and I still kind of am, but I am working through it the best way I can. I told them both that it would take me some time to feel completely better and it will, believe me, but there is really nothing else I can do. I know the whole thing is going to be close to impossible for me, even though I said I would try my best to not let it bother me, but in all honesty, it's really not something that just goes away in a couple days. It's really going to take me a while to be okay with the whole situation and Im so afraid of how it's all going to work out. Already they seem to be moving forward and as much as I want to be so psyched for them and just smile, it's so hard because I feel as if I am going to take on the role of a third wheel very, very soon and Im just not ready for it. It may seem like I should be able to just let this whole thing go, but for some reason I cant. However, i do feel better than I did when I wrote my last post. I will eventually be able to look back at all this and laugh, but right now, I'm going to work through all of it the best I can. Below I have pasted a quote that I have really latched onto the past couple days and I really do believe it is true.
~*As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.*~
So, from here on out, I am really going to try to be happy...wish me luck!