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this is a very personal/private entry! i am not putting it as friends only b/c these are my thoughts and stories that i'd like to share. as most of you already know, i lost my best guy friend back in February. i have had more than 10 dreams since his death. they are all very comforting dreams and i share them w/his mom because she wants to hear them. i have never talked about any of this over LJ b/c i believe it's very private. most of you probably don't believe in dreams, but i do. i'm not talking about silly dreams or dreams that don't make sense. i'm talking about dreams that really touch your heart.
as you most may know. shawn was my very best guy friend who i could talk to about anything. we shared secrets, laughter, and many fun and crazy nights together.
i have to share this dream w/you guys. but, before i do, i need to give a little info of what happened before i had this dream. on monday morning i woke from a deep sleep for some reason, rolled over, looked at the clock and it was 6:34 a.m.! i didn't think anything about it, but tuesday morning i woke up, looked at the clock, it was 6:34 a.m., again! so, last night i had a dream that i was standing in the woods. i was kneeled down, kinda hiding from someone. i heard a four-wheeler coming and saw that it was Shawn. he stopped and turned his four-wheeler off and was fiddling around w/something. then he started the four-wheeler back up and took off flying. from the other side of the road, something ran out in front of him, it was an animal of some kind. shawn swirved to miss the animal and hit a bump. the only thing i could see in my dream was him flying off his four-wheeler and i woke up. i looked at the clock, 6:34 a.m., yet again.
so, as most of you know, shawn died in a four-wheeler accident. he was thrown from his four-wheeler, but it was on a straight patch of dirt road. which, is why many people had a hard time dealing w/his death. many people didn't understand how he could have died on this straight road. they did conclude that he hit a rock/bump sticking up from the road and he was going too fast when he hit it. that's why he was thrown off.
but, i emailed his mom my dream. she wrote me back and told me that after she read my email, she went to get the police report that she had put away. she said that at 6:18 p.m. the sheriff arrived at the accident. the med-flight RN had pronounced shawn dead at 6:34 p.m.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as soon as i read this, i was shaking...i couldn't believe it. she told me that she's definitely convinced of dreams and that shawn is sending messages through me. i now believe that after death, people do send you messages through your dreams. i have always thought about "what if" something did run out in front of him that made him lose control of his four-wheeler. his parents are determined to find out what happened. they do have his four-wheeler in florida to see if they could find a default in his four-wheeler b/c they did receive a recall after his death.
so, i just needed to express my feelings about this situation. as i sit here and stare at the huge picture i have of him in my living room, i know he cared and thought alot about me. i'm so happy of the friendship we shared. i miss him like crazy! :(
as you most may know. shawn was my very best guy friend who i could talk to about anything. we shared secrets, laughter, and many fun and crazy nights together.
i have to share this dream w/you guys. but, before i do, i need to give a little info of what happened before i had this dream. on monday morning i woke from a deep sleep for some reason, rolled over, looked at the clock and it was 6:34 a.m.! i didn't think anything about it, but tuesday morning i woke up, looked at the clock, it was 6:34 a.m., again! so, last night i had a dream that i was standing in the woods. i was kneeled down, kinda hiding from someone. i heard a four-wheeler coming and saw that it was Shawn. he stopped and turned his four-wheeler off and was fiddling around w/something. then he started the four-wheeler back up and took off flying. from the other side of the road, something ran out in front of him, it was an animal of some kind. shawn swirved to miss the animal and hit a bump. the only thing i could see in my dream was him flying off his four-wheeler and i woke up. i looked at the clock, 6:34 a.m., yet again.
so, as most of you know, shawn died in a four-wheeler accident. he was thrown from his four-wheeler, but it was on a straight patch of dirt road. which, is why many people had a hard time dealing w/his death. many people didn't understand how he could have died on this straight road. they did conclude that he hit a rock/bump sticking up from the road and he was going too fast when he hit it. that's why he was thrown off.
but, i emailed his mom my dream. she wrote me back and told me that after she read my email, she went to get the police report that she had put away. she said that at 6:18 p.m. the sheriff arrived at the accident. the med-flight RN had pronounced shawn dead at 6:34 p.m.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as soon as i read this, i was shaking...i couldn't believe it. she told me that she's definitely convinced of dreams and that shawn is sending messages through me. i now believe that after death, people do send you messages through your dreams. i have always thought about "what if" something did run out in front of him that made him lose control of his four-wheeler. his parents are determined to find out what happened. they do have his four-wheeler in florida to see if they could find a default in his four-wheeler b/c they did receive a recall after his death.
so, i just needed to express my feelings about this situation. as i sit here and stare at the huge picture i have of him in my living room, i know he cared and thought alot about me. i'm so happy of the friendship we shared. i miss him like crazy! :(