depressive
so just now i left mr schneppenheim a message that consisted of things like us taking a break. that was the hardest thing i've ever done. i hate crying, it makes my face wet.....well i dunno what to do....what do single people do these days...go out clubbin or something. i need to do this though.... its the best thing for me...some one reassure me. i hope we can still be friends and everything though. david told me he would go get chris and kill him so i thought this was the better way out of things. my family party thing was super boring and really loud and consisted of me thinking, stupidly telling my crazy aunt what i was thinking about, having her say a bunch of shit about it, and then crying all the way home really quietly so no one in the car heard. yeah wonderful night i would say. my myspace isnt doing good its cutting everything off after half of my general section and for some reason that made me cry more...thats great. it is now 4:02 and im fuckin tired and i have to get up early and go to church and then come home for a little bit and then go to some crappy ramsey house or something...i really dont know, and then go out to eat. yay...you know how sad i'm going ot be thru all of this. yeah thats all i can really type...i dunno. its johns birthday! yay yeah ill ttys maybe....<3heartbroken