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why can't i just forget... why does everything have to remind me of the past.
every song, every word.. everything reminds me of him and the memories i have. i can't escape. and that's what i need.. i need to escape.. when i don't and i get reminded like tonight and i just crack.
i admited today that i'm not okay.. i'm really not. i thought i was... but the other night i heard 'anything but mine' on the music station. and i couln't hold back my tears. and it hurts so much. being around happy people/couples makes me sad.
i've just giving up on every ounch of faith i had.
but i dont understand.. why won't he talk to me.. ?
i just wish there was a pill i could take to make it all go away... but i know thats not the way.
i don't want tobe reminded anymore...
cure me from the heartach before it kills me from the inside out...
keeping busy might work. beause if i have no time to stop and think then everything wil be okay right?
im not okay... i'm really not...
and man... this song explin how i feel
every song, every word.. everything reminds me of him and the memories i have. i can't escape. and that's what i need.. i need to escape.. when i don't and i get reminded like tonight and i just crack.
i admited today that i'm not okay.. i'm really not. i thought i was... but the other night i heard 'anything but mine' on the music station. and i couln't hold back my tears. and it hurts so much. being around happy people/couples makes me sad.
i've just giving up on every ounch of faith i had.
but i dont understand.. why won't he talk to me.. ?
i just wish there was a pill i could take to make it all go away... but i know thats not the way.
i don't want tobe reminded anymore...
cure me from the heartach before it kills me from the inside out...
keeping busy might work. beause if i have no time to stop and think then everything wil be okay right?
im not okay... i'm really not...
and man... this song explin how i feel