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man, i didnt think a few weeks here would ever be 'akward' or.. upsetting. don't get me wrong. i like it here and i dont want to leave early or anything.. but.. ugh.... we had a conversation a a couple nights ago.. and i don't think he understood what was wrong.. i understood what was bugging him.. but... like i said .. ugh!
so much stuff is diferent.
he told me that he was acting the same way that he was on march break.. and when i told him that he wasnt, i couldnt explain what the difference was... but figures i know now.. but i don't wanna just be like.. so hey. yea.. you dont put your arm around me at movies, you dont kiss me whenever you have the chance, you dont hold me. ect... just mushy stuff like that that i thought i would never ever want in a realtionship.. but you know what.. its what makes it all worth while. just out of nowhere getting kissed. or held. it makes me happy. he doesnt even say nice things very often any more and he doesnt say he loves me.. and i cant believe im wrighting in here. cuz i know thast whats going on his not all his fault. and it makes it sound like im blamming him full on. but really... i would do anything to make it work.. anything...
so much stuff is diferent.
he told me that he was acting the same way that he was on march break.. and when i told him that he wasnt, i couldnt explain what the difference was... but figures i know now.. but i don't wanna just be like.. so hey. yea.. you dont put your arm around me at movies, you dont kiss me whenever you have the chance, you dont hold me. ect... just mushy stuff like that that i thought i would never ever want in a realtionship.. but you know what.. its what makes it all worth while. just out of nowhere getting kissed. or held. it makes me happy. he doesnt even say nice things very often any more and he doesnt say he loves me.. and i cant believe im wrighting in here. cuz i know thast whats going on his not all his fault. and it makes it sound like im blamming him full on. but really... i would do anything to make it work.. anything...