(no subject)
That's it.
When you do something really stupid and it shocks you to your senses?
Yeah, that'd be today.
So close, but yet so far.
Everything was going right. But was it?
I'm just wasting time
(like I've been doing for the last month)
I watched High School Musical.
Now I realize that the obsession everyone has is totally valid.
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen?
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song
Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
Honestly, I don't want it to be over.
(Rewind)
Things had been changing at break-neck speed. I don't like this.
(Slow it down... right there. Pause)
It seems like everyone just wants to 'fix' things before graduation. Myself included. But... where has this compassion been these last four years? My heart wants to combust right now with all the emotions tangled up in it. I think I'm just going to cry my way through the last few weeks here.
And I'm sick, like literally. I hate sniffles.
(Wait, let's try this scene again)
I want something to surprise me.
Like, Friday, I was just shaking with overestatic happiness for M.
But then I walked away from that back into being disappointed by... everything?
No, not everything. Lots of things are good.
(Cue background music)
"I believe (You can't love too much one part of it)
that my life's gonna be (You can't love too much one part of it)
the love I give...
returned to me."
I just feel so stupid
and... helpless?
(Alright everyone, Cut! That's a wrap)
When you do something really stupid and it shocks you to your senses?
Yeah, that'd be today.
So close, but yet so far.
Everything was going right. But was it?
I'm just wasting time
(like I've been doing for the last month)
I watched High School Musical.
Now I realize that the obsession everyone has is totally valid.
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen?
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song
Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
Honestly, I don't want it to be over.
(Rewind)
Things had been changing at break-neck speed. I don't like this.
(Slow it down... right there. Pause)
It seems like everyone just wants to 'fix' things before graduation. Myself included. But... where has this compassion been these last four years? My heart wants to combust right now with all the emotions tangled up in it. I think I'm just going to cry my way through the last few weeks here.
And I'm sick, like literally. I hate sniffles.
(Wait, let's try this scene again)
I want something to surprise me.
Like, Friday, I was just shaking with overestatic happiness for M.
But then I walked away from that back into being disappointed by... everything?
No, not everything. Lots of things are good.
(Cue background music)
"I believe (You can't love too much one part of it)
that my life's gonna be (You can't love too much one part of it)
the love I give...
returned to me."
I just feel so stupid
and... helpless?
(Alright everyone, Cut! That's a wrap)