*Sigh*

[jilliebeaners27]

This day two years ago, it was my bachelorette party. I had the best time. Drinks, food, family, it was incredible. Last year, I was fighting with Steve. I thought he would go all out for my birthday being the first one we were married for. I thought he'd make it up to me for all the hell he'd put us through. I thought it was be amazing.
He ended up getting sick... He had an absess, and needed emergency surgery. I sat by his side the entire time. I took off of work to take care of him, like a good wife should. I changed his bandages, gave him his medicine, helped him change, made sure he ate... I took care of him. My birthday... Didnt exist last year. I cry almost every year on my birthday.
It used to be because I didnt want to grow up. Now, its much deeper than that. I love birthdays, I love making people feel special and enjoy their day.
I know its good to hold onto at least one thing. That is literally all Im hanging onto. I can not wait to see a band on my birthday. I cant want to feel pretty and get lost in a dark place listening to loud music. Nothing is better, especially when Im emotional. Im hoping I can keep it all together.
Tomorrow will be great.
Tomorrow will be awesome.
Its going to be great.
Its going to be incredible.