Not Dead.
I was having a good time.
I felt free
The music was just making me move and smile. My heart was racing and pounding with excitement and joy. It was just another feeling Ive been searching for!
I dream and fantasize about one of those nights (oh come on, we've had them!) where you are drunk and the lights are dim and you just dance! Well I got this, only without the drinking part. Which honestly made it better!
Helloooo epiphany! I know I dont need alcohol to have fun. But when you think of doing something drunk and you get the same experience, if not a better one, whole sober... It makes it a thousand times sweeter.
The only thing that wouldve made me dancing in a parking lot to loud music, better, is obviously if I couldve stayed and two, if someone or others wouldve been dancing too.
Why are we afraid to dance? Why are we afraid to let our bodies move even if we look ridiculous? Whats the big deal? Sooo strangers can laugh and make fun of us? Are we going to see them again? Do we care? Why do we even care? Are we having fun, who CARES?
I want to spin in circles, shake my hips, whip my hair and have my arms up in the air. Maybe I want to jump, maybe I want swivel. I dont know... But the world needs more dancing. I need more dancing. Dance like no one is watching. Just DO what feels GOOD.
What was even better was being barefoot. Everything is better without shoes.
In other news on my path to self discovery and emotional reboot. Lets discuss AGE. Yeah, Im 28. Yeah, Im close to 30.... Im not fucking dead, people. My heart still beats nice and strong. My body is strong, I am incredibly proud of what it can achieve. So here's the thing; IM NOT FUCKING DEAD!!! I want to dance, I want to laugh, I want to experience life! I want to explore, I want to adventure. I want to wear crop tops and high waisted shorts and not have someone fucking tell me "yeah, well we arent 22 anymore" uhhhh no shit Sherlock, but Im not 50 either. So if you think Im going to dress like an old lady when I am 28.... Ha we should just not shop or hang out anymore. IM NOT DEAD!
Next.... On this same ideal of that Im not an old lady yet... I love LOUD MUSIC! I love having my windows down. I love signing at the top of my lungs and screaming because 95% of the time, Im alone. I love sticking my hands out my window. I love that feeling like you are flying. I love my windows open and I love loud music to compensate. If I ever get to where I dont love those things.... Please shoot me.
Now I'll continue on this 15 hour long drive back to Buffalo. Lets do this!
I felt free
The music was just making me move and smile. My heart was racing and pounding with excitement and joy. It was just another feeling Ive been searching for!
I dream and fantasize about one of those nights (oh come on, we've had them!) where you are drunk and the lights are dim and you just dance! Well I got this, only without the drinking part. Which honestly made it better!
Helloooo epiphany! I know I dont need alcohol to have fun. But when you think of doing something drunk and you get the same experience, if not a better one, whole sober... It makes it a thousand times sweeter.
The only thing that wouldve made me dancing in a parking lot to loud music, better, is obviously if I couldve stayed and two, if someone or others wouldve been dancing too.
Why are we afraid to dance? Why are we afraid to let our bodies move even if we look ridiculous? Whats the big deal? Sooo strangers can laugh and make fun of us? Are we going to see them again? Do we care? Why do we even care? Are we having fun, who CARES?
I want to spin in circles, shake my hips, whip my hair and have my arms up in the air. Maybe I want to jump, maybe I want swivel. I dont know... But the world needs more dancing. I need more dancing. Dance like no one is watching. Just DO what feels GOOD.
What was even better was being barefoot. Everything is better without shoes.
In other news on my path to self discovery and emotional reboot. Lets discuss AGE. Yeah, Im 28. Yeah, Im close to 30.... Im not fucking dead, people. My heart still beats nice and strong. My body is strong, I am incredibly proud of what it can achieve. So here's the thing; IM NOT FUCKING DEAD!!! I want to dance, I want to laugh, I want to experience life! I want to explore, I want to adventure. I want to wear crop tops and high waisted shorts and not have someone fucking tell me "yeah, well we arent 22 anymore" uhhhh no shit Sherlock, but Im not 50 either. So if you think Im going to dress like an old lady when I am 28.... Ha we should just not shop or hang out anymore. IM NOT DEAD!
Next.... On this same ideal of that Im not an old lady yet... I love LOUD MUSIC! I love having my windows down. I love signing at the top of my lungs and screaming because 95% of the time, Im alone. I love sticking my hands out my window. I love that feeling like you are flying. I love my windows open and I love loud music to compensate. If I ever get to where I dont love those things.... Please shoot me.
Now I'll continue on this 15 hour long drive back to Buffalo. Lets do this!