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[jilliebeaners27]

Ive decided to "blog" again. Or back in the day it was just LiveJournal. Writing is my hugest outlet. I figured it out, Ive been journaling for 20 years. How insane is that?! The amount of books and stories I have, are pretty unreal. I have finally gotten smart enough to settle for a spiral notebook from the dollar tree instead of a fancy pants-ed journal from BnN. Im not knocking BnN, I freaking love that store! I thought I would attempt to revamp my LJ. Reason being is Im 28 years old, my life has been full of expectations, a heck of a lot of love, a heck of a lot of loss, a splash of mental health issues and a massive dash of changing my life. Everyday Im enlightened, even when I dont want to be. Everyday Im learning something that my stubborn ass doesnt want to learn. I have a tremendous amount of love and support from my family and friends. But there are times I still feel alone and wish someone would just hold my hand or grab my face to help ground me and say "Keep your eye on the prize... The prize is you". Since I cant have that 24 hours a day, Ive decided to do this again. Maybe in my own healing, I can help others, eventually, maybe. If I can get enough people to read this damn thing. Or maybe someone will stumble across it right when they need it most. Because yes, I am Catholic, yes, I am Christian, yes, I obviously believe in God and Jesus, and sometimes things find a way of falling into our lap, when we either need it most, or least expect it.
So stay tuned for other epiphanies and ramblings! Maybe we will all learn a little something about how even though things sure as FUCK dont turn out like we expect it... Maybe its not so bad after all. And even though we are 28-35 or older, we arent doing something wrong just because we arent where we thought we should be, expect to be, or others think we should be.
We got this.

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