Oct 17, 2006 01:19
Wow...If you had told me 4 years ago that it would turn out this way, I would have accused you of total lunacy...I can't even get my mind around my feelings right now...It's like all our differences finally caught up with us...And I can't seem to understand it all...I've said all there is to say...But I guess I haven't said the right thing...But if you told me what the right thing was, I'd say it...I promise I would...
I never thought it would be that hard...I didn't think it would affect me that much...But it's touched me in a way I don't know how to explain...
What else is there to do...I've battled the rage for too long now...The little man in my head who screens everything before I say it has fallen asleep on the job too many times...I feel like I'm on the verge of snapping...All of the time...
I don't know what else to say...Except that despite all the anger I feel...I love you...I tried not to...But it didn't work...Maybe I should try harder...