So Sad So many tears....
So let me ask you something...Have you ever found out a secret from people that are supposed to be the ones you look up too, admire, and trust the most? ANd when you find it out it breaks your heart? Well this happened to me yesterday. I found out something that my family has been hiding from me for my entire life. I find out that my sibling all new about it for at least 5 years if not more. What happened was, and please please please dont repeat this....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday my husband and I got into a fight, well my daddy came to check on me to make sure that I was okay. Well sitting in his lap was a pack of Marlbros. So I asked him "What are you doing with a pack of smokes"? Well he responded "I found them". So then I went in to call my mom to tell her that things between Dan and I were okay. But I asked her if dad smoked. She hesitated and then said "YES". My entire world came crashing down at that moment. I was just hoping that she would say no. Even now as i write this i cant believe it. 24 fucking years of my life they have hid this. My siblings all new and they hid it. I get shit all the time from all of them including my dad about me smoking and that is not right to me. My family all makes it out as a joke now and it is something we dont talk about. What the fuck is that all about.
I dont know what to do, I cant look at him the same way and I feel so hurt and betrayed at the moment. And i think that i am in denial about the whole thing. My daddy, my hero, the man i look up too cant smoke it just doesnt seem possible. I dont want to believe it, i am going crazy.
Well anywho I do have to go. I write this to my close friends in confidence. Please keep to yourself the things that i have dissclosed. Thank you for listening...
Yesterday my husband and I got into a fight, well my daddy came to check on me to make sure that I was okay. Well sitting in his lap was a pack of Marlbros. So I asked him "What are you doing with a pack of smokes"? Well he responded "I found them". So then I went in to call my mom to tell her that things between Dan and I were okay. But I asked her if dad smoked. She hesitated and then said "YES". My entire world came crashing down at that moment. I was just hoping that she would say no. Even now as i write this i cant believe it. 24 fucking years of my life they have hid this. My siblings all new and they hid it. I get shit all the time from all of them including my dad about me smoking and that is not right to me. My family all makes it out as a joke now and it is something we dont talk about. What the fuck is that all about.
I dont know what to do, I cant look at him the same way and I feel so hurt and betrayed at the moment. And i think that i am in denial about the whole thing. My daddy, my hero, the man i look up too cant smoke it just doesnt seem possible. I dont want to believe it, i am going crazy.
Well anywho I do have to go. I write this to my close friends in confidence. Please keep to yourself the things that i have dissclosed. Thank you for listening...