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I've been thinking a lot lately about how my life is going to change in a few weeks. For some reason, it hasn't really hit me yet. I think it's because I'm going somewhere familiar and where I know a few people. Maybe that's why it doesn't really feel like I'm leaving. It's an odd feeling. I've been here 4 years, but it seems like just yesterday I got here. I'm not sure that I'm ready to leave this place or the people that mean so much to me.
I'm getting more and more nervous as each day goes by. For instance, I'm worried about my living situation. As much as I hope everything goes smoothly, I'm nervous about living with Steve, especially because we haven't really talked about it so much. I mean, when we were moving into the Brothel, we were picking out paint colors and planning a few months before we moved. Steve and I hadn't even talked about the rent situation until Dan brought it up a few weeks ago. That's probably what's bugging me the most, that we haven't talked about it. Plus, it just seems weird that I'll be living with Steve. Something I'm sure to get over quickly though. I just hope we stay friends through it all.
And of course I'm worried about grad school. Freaking out is more like it. I've hardly studied for my Tier I exams, and we were supposed to study 3-5 hours a day for the 2 months before the exams. And I'm down to a month. Ah! But I think I'm going to end up taking an undergrad course or two to ease into the grad school thing. And hopefully the teaching gig goes well. Oh, and as much as I want to take the PDE course, I don't think I'm going to... as much as I would love to have Steve as a prof because I know he's talented, I think it will just make things awkward and I don't want to put either of us in that position.
I also wonder if I have done enough of what I wanted to do before I left. Well, I know I haven't, but it's been tough with not having a car and not being on the best terms with a lot of people. I just know I've been through a lot this year, and I needed some alone time. Alas, I think I'm ready for some freakin' company! I've got 11 days left until I leave for Lake Tahoe, then when I get back I have 3 days of packing and then moving to Bloomington. Not too much time to finish my list! Plus, I'll be in the Fort this Friday for my mom's birthday, so take one of those days off.
So, my point is, come hang out with me! Of course, I'll do my part as well. Oh yeah, I think I'm going to have a Project Runway viewing party in my suite this Wednesday instead of the usual dinner/movie at Jeanna's. The new season starts, and it should be fun times as always! Let me know if you wanna come, and let me know if you wanna hang out any other time. Oh, and what do you all think about a going away party before I leave? I need to see everyone before I go!
Love you all, have a good night!
I'm getting more and more nervous as each day goes by. For instance, I'm worried about my living situation. As much as I hope everything goes smoothly, I'm nervous about living with Steve, especially because we haven't really talked about it so much. I mean, when we were moving into the Brothel, we were picking out paint colors and planning a few months before we moved. Steve and I hadn't even talked about the rent situation until Dan brought it up a few weeks ago. That's probably what's bugging me the most, that we haven't talked about it. Plus, it just seems weird that I'll be living with Steve. Something I'm sure to get over quickly though. I just hope we stay friends through it all.
And of course I'm worried about grad school. Freaking out is more like it. I've hardly studied for my Tier I exams, and we were supposed to study 3-5 hours a day for the 2 months before the exams. And I'm down to a month. Ah! But I think I'm going to end up taking an undergrad course or two to ease into the grad school thing. And hopefully the teaching gig goes well. Oh, and as much as I want to take the PDE course, I don't think I'm going to... as much as I would love to have Steve as a prof because I know he's talented, I think it will just make things awkward and I don't want to put either of us in that position.
I also wonder if I have done enough of what I wanted to do before I left. Well, I know I haven't, but it's been tough with not having a car and not being on the best terms with a lot of people. I just know I've been through a lot this year, and I needed some alone time. Alas, I think I'm ready for some freakin' company! I've got 11 days left until I leave for Lake Tahoe, then when I get back I have 3 days of packing and then moving to Bloomington. Not too much time to finish my list! Plus, I'll be in the Fort this Friday for my mom's birthday, so take one of those days off.
So, my point is, come hang out with me! Of course, I'll do my part as well. Oh yeah, I think I'm going to have a Project Runway viewing party in my suite this Wednesday instead of the usual dinner/movie at Jeanna's. The new season starts, and it should be fun times as always! Let me know if you wanna come, and let me know if you wanna hang out any other time. Oh, and what do you all think about a going away party before I leave? I need to see everyone before I go!
Love you all, have a good night!