I said I was retiring my livejournal but....
Its been a year since she died. I keep thinking about something that was said at Kay Scott's funeral. One autumn afternoon, when her cancer was particularly bad she was looking out the window while her children were playing in the yard. Her husband came in and asked if she needed anything. She said that everything she could have ever wanted was right there in her plain sight. She was still too young to die, leaving a family of six children and a man who adored the ground she walked on.
I think a lot but I have been doing a lot more thinking that usual as of late. I keep thinking about my own life and how if I were to die today, I wouldn't be who I want to be. Kay was angelic, intelligent, and kind in every sense of the word. I haven't accomplished my goals, mastered my character and myself, or had the opportunity to do all that I want to do. I think that if given Kay's situation, I would have enough faith to accept God's will but then I wonder what I would do if I wasn't given a few years to prepare, if I ran out of time and I died before I was ready. I guess I wouldn't be thinking about death so much if I didn't find the idea so troubling.
So here is where I throw my question into the void of livejournal. If you died today would you at least die content? What makes your life or any life in general meaningful? What do you want to accomplish before you die? I know that many of you have religious views very different from mine so I am a little curious how you feel on the subject. I don't expect anyone to respond. I just needed to ask.
I think a lot but I have been doing a lot more thinking that usual as of late. I keep thinking about my own life and how if I were to die today, I wouldn't be who I want to be. Kay was angelic, intelligent, and kind in every sense of the word. I haven't accomplished my goals, mastered my character and myself, or had the opportunity to do all that I want to do. I think that if given Kay's situation, I would have enough faith to accept God's will but then I wonder what I would do if I wasn't given a few years to prepare, if I ran out of time and I died before I was ready. I guess I wouldn't be thinking about death so much if I didn't find the idea so troubling.
So here is where I throw my question into the void of livejournal. If you died today would you at least die content? What makes your life or any life in general meaningful? What do you want to accomplish before you die? I know that many of you have religious views very different from mine so I am a little curious how you feel on the subject. I don't expect anyone to respond. I just needed to ask.