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its really kind of amazing how i can be depressed in one area, leave it, be depressed in my new area and then come back to the old one and feel amazing. that make sense?
i think i have a problem with thinking my life at home with somehow make me feel better even though all it does is make me fucking depressed. for some reason i always think that being home will make everything go away. like, i just start missing it. but all i do when i am home is be alone, starving, lonely and yelled at. but when i am in daytona i feel like i need to be home. why am i so attached to the one place that brings me the most misery? i just don't understand.
-jillian
i think i have a problem with thinking my life at home with somehow make me feel better even though all it does is make me fucking depressed. for some reason i always think that being home will make everything go away. like, i just start missing it. but all i do when i am home is be alone, starving, lonely and yelled at. but when i am in daytona i feel like i need to be home. why am i so attached to the one place that brings me the most misery? i just don't understand.
-jillian