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you know, I'm okay with this. which is surprising because I'm usually not. he told me today that he usually falls for the beautiful girls with problems... I guess I'm half that.
I can't hold it against him though because he's the first boy ive ever truly believed when he talks about things and the kind of girls he likes.
so yeah, I'm admitting to myself that I like him but I'm honestly okay with it and I don't hate him for being a liar and a stupid fucking boy. I feel so comfortable around him. I hope to find a boy of my own just like him.
I also have been thinking a lot about marriage and being a mother lately. mostly because of what he's said to me on two separate occasions. "you'd make a good wife" "you'd be a good mother" but currently I can't help but wonder with who? I oddly can't see myself not being married but I also can't see myself ever having a boyfriend.
I know this is putting woman back like 40 years but, I can cook really well, I'm strangely maternal, I don't ever want to birth an actual child out of my vagina but I don't mind raising them, and I really like taking care of people so where is the guy that wants to spend the rest of his life with me?
... idk I guess I'm just thinking of these things cuz I'm reaching the age range where people start considering and acting on this kind of stuff.
I guess this post will end up like all the others... I'm lonely.
-jillian
I can't hold it against him though because he's the first boy ive ever truly believed when he talks about things and the kind of girls he likes.
so yeah, I'm admitting to myself that I like him but I'm honestly okay with it and I don't hate him for being a liar and a stupid fucking boy. I feel so comfortable around him. I hope to find a boy of my own just like him.
I also have been thinking a lot about marriage and being a mother lately. mostly because of what he's said to me on two separate occasions. "you'd make a good wife" "you'd be a good mother" but currently I can't help but wonder with who? I oddly can't see myself not being married but I also can't see myself ever having a boyfriend.
I know this is putting woman back like 40 years but, I can cook really well, I'm strangely maternal, I don't ever want to birth an actual child out of my vagina but I don't mind raising them, and I really like taking care of people so where is the guy that wants to spend the rest of his life with me?
... idk I guess I'm just thinking of these things cuz I'm reaching the age range where people start considering and acting on this kind of stuff.
I guess this post will end up like all the others... I'm lonely.
-jillian