just thinkin...
so i was watching a movie on lifetime earlier today called "born to exile" and i got to thinking that i really feel bad for the new orleans people... i mean seriously - not only do i have 2 jobs right now that i get paychecks from every other week but i also have my parents to help me out whenever i need money. they pay my rent, my phone bill, my credit card bill along with other things. i mean c'mon the least i could do was spare $10 to donate to the hurricane relief fund or whatever they call it so that red cross can use it to help the people in need in new orleans. i have to say it felt really fucking good to help other people out... considering i have all that i could ask for and more and they are sitting out in the cold or heat depending on the weather there right now. they lost everything even their homes, money, clothes, personal belongings that meant something to them, pictures, all their memories are gone and ruined. i feel so extremely bad for them. i decided to IM Johnny tonight... he responded and told me that he's really upset with how our relationship ended up after graduation. he said that its because of him.. yes he's busy but there are ways to pick up a phone and just say "hi..how are you doing?" ya know?! he said he lost 4 cell phone in the past year and he finally got enough money together and put his priorities straight and bought himself a new phone instead of asking parents for the money. i'm so proud of him ... he's maturing... that's the johnny i know and that i've grown to love. i adore johnny ... always have and always will til the day i die. i miss him alot... more than he'll ever know i think... we both love eachother but when i say the word love i mean as a friend... as a really good friend. as a best friend.. after telling me that he bought himself a new phone (phone #5..lol) he then asked me for my phone number and he said he was gonna give me a call cuz we need to talk about our relationship more and just talk like we used to in high school. i swear people really change after graduation.... i dont think i changed... or have i?