brand new me
well you're all probably wondering what i mean by "brand new me" in my title. it basically means that sometimes i feel like i'm running around in circles trying to figure out what i wanna do with my life after valencia. and then i have my parents saying that they support me 100% no matter what i decide to do and/or wherever i decide to go after valencia. i'm not sure what i'm doing. i'm not really sure of anything anymore. don't get me wrong, i LOVE theater and i LOVE stage managing.... it's my life. yet, my singing career is more important to me. getting a record contract with a major record label is my life long dream. So with that said i've decided to audition for the next season of American Idol which is a big step for me bc its been a long time since i've sang in front of a big crowd of ppl and idk where this is all coming from. i just know that i really need to step foward with my life and face reality. i finally realized that i'm not gonna be noticed sitting in the wings... i need to seriously make something of myself. i really want to make a demo and i really don't understand how ppl get noticed and how ppl get record contracts if the record labels don't want ppl sending them demos and stuff. wtf!?!? anyways so ya i dont get it. lol
i guess that's my entry for tonight. i know that none of this probably makes any sense and i know i didn't even really have anything important to say that all of you would probably want to read but i needed to put it down in writing what i was feeling and that's what a journal is for... right?!
Nick called me tonight. it felt really good to talk to him bc we havent spoken in a few weeks. its gonna be so much fun being in the same class as him and Andy. i think this summer is really gonna rock. i started back at CEC on monday. i totally CANNOT wait. i honestly didn't think i'd miss it.. although it might just be that i couldn't stand working at CEC Boca and all the other employees there pissed me off towards the end. but i really think i'm gonna like working at CEC Waterford Lakes.
Goodnight and sweet dreams everyone
i guess that's my entry for tonight. i know that none of this probably makes any sense and i know i didn't even really have anything important to say that all of you would probably want to read but i needed to put it down in writing what i was feeling and that's what a journal is for... right?!
Nick called me tonight. it felt really good to talk to him bc we havent spoken in a few weeks. its gonna be so much fun being in the same class as him and Andy. i think this summer is really gonna rock. i started back at CEC on monday. i totally CANNOT wait. i honestly didn't think i'd miss it.. although it might just be that i couldn't stand working at CEC Boca and all the other employees there pissed me off towards the end. but i really think i'm gonna like working at CEC Waterford Lakes.
Goodnight and sweet dreams everyone