religion and random things
Summer is almost over, and I go back to work in 5 days. I am not happy about it but I need to so I must. Matthew will be going to a new daycare, so we are going for about an hour each day to get himn used the setting. This monring I told him that were going to see ms. Lucia today and he smiled- a good sign. Then when I told him next week he will be staying with Ms. Lucia while mommy is at work, he got a sad look on his face and said "i'll miss you. mommy". It took everything in me not cry, so I hugged him and said "I'll miss you, too" and he gave me kisses. What a way to make me feel guilty... and loved at the same time.
I just realized the Jewish holidays are coming up, and Rosh Hashana is on the weekend which means we will be expected to come home. There are few reasons I do not really want to go home, 1- Rob is not Jewish, he was raised Catholis but disagrees with organized religion, he is sciencifitic and sort believes in god but questions it, 2- the drive is killer in time and on our budget- $120-200 round trip , and if we hit traffic a 3 and half hour drive can turn into 5-6 hours or longer, 3- I am not religious and we are not going to services so we are basically driving to NJ for dinner which is ok, but I am not sur i am up for it. My mother is going to make me feel so guilty for not coming home, I probably will give in to stop the guilt, even though I really do not think it is a good idea to go home.
As far was my weight loss goes, I am trying, then get frustrated and eat everything. I follow WW and try to exercise and do not lose. Wonder if I am destined to be at 145ish even though I want to lose 10 more. I think I may do better once school starts, no time to snack and no extra money to go to dinner or Cold Stone. I just have to get myself back on track and be motivated to lose the last 10 pounds.
Enough rambling, have to try to do some work for the work at home business I am trying to run. I am going to purchase a shorter URL from godaddy.com adn will post it as soon as I get the transfer done.
I just realized the Jewish holidays are coming up, and Rosh Hashana is on the weekend which means we will be expected to come home. There are few reasons I do not really want to go home, 1- Rob is not Jewish, he was raised Catholis but disagrees with organized religion, he is sciencifitic and sort believes in god but questions it, 2- the drive is killer in time and on our budget- $120-200 round trip , and if we hit traffic a 3 and half hour drive can turn into 5-6 hours or longer, 3- I am not religious and we are not going to services so we are basically driving to NJ for dinner which is ok, but I am not sur i am up for it. My mother is going to make me feel so guilty for not coming home, I probably will give in to stop the guilt, even though I really do not think it is a good idea to go home.
As far was my weight loss goes, I am trying, then get frustrated and eat everything. I follow WW and try to exercise and do not lose. Wonder if I am destined to be at 145ish even though I want to lose 10 more. I think I may do better once school starts, no time to snack and no extra money to go to dinner or Cold Stone. I just have to get myself back on track and be motivated to lose the last 10 pounds.
Enough rambling, have to try to do some work for the work at home business I am trying to run. I am going to purchase a shorter URL from godaddy.com adn will post it as soon as I get the transfer done.