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Hello, my beautiful people! So... Let's see, what am I up to? Well, I've gone to school for 3 days now; I go today, too. Been up early today, though, so I have some time to spare.
I haven't been able to sleep, that's why. :/ I dunno why, I guess. 2 of the days I went to school it was on 3 hours of sleep, then I went on 1 hour, then yesterday I took a nap from like 5pm-12am and woke up. Been up since. I tried to go to sleep at like 2:30, but it didn't work. ^.^;; Gives me more time to perfect my eye makeup though. :) I love it. People probly think it's too much, but it just suits me. Yesterday I wore my Ben jersey to school and I was walking in the cafeteria and some guy was like "now that is unflattering". I dunno if he was talking about my eyemakeup or the fact that I was wearing a jersey that isn't exactly form-fitting. XD I was like o.O;; But, he might not have even been talking about me, I guess. So, whatever. Jealous.
Have some show and tell thing today for my public speaking class. I'm gonna bring the picture from Jade's dissolve show that she sent me. I was trying to think of something that I could talk about to the class and I was like "what means something to me? Well... Anything from Jade does..." Then, I thought of that print-out. hehe I swear this class... I feel like I've been enrolled in another drama class. -.-;; Which I am so over. We have to do like... The whole class is presentations in front of everyone. That's basically what your assignments are. Well, I don't have a problem speaking in front of groups of people, but it's just kinda like blah blah. I'm so over that, ya know? I've been through enough drama stuff, k thx. But, I dunno I spose it can't hurt me. Maybe it'll give me more self-esteem or something.
I've been thinking lately. Cause like, I think the people around me have helped me realize that I have like... Self-esteem and insecurity issues or something. Like, I don't like doing things alone or whatever... Like... I don't like calling places to ask questions about whatever or like going up to someone to ask them something. I just feel like I'm bothering them and I don't like being in places with lots of people because I feel like I'm in the way. (as small as I am, I know) And I don't like going to buffets or looking at clothes and shopping alone. And I don't think I could even eat at a sit down restaurant by myself. It just feels like everyone's staring at me and for some reason that bothers me. I know I just said I was comfortable speaking in front of groups of people, but it's not *really* the same thing. For instance, I kinda made a big deal because when I was in the Charlotte airport on my way home I went to a starbucks there and I ordered a mocha and I was by myself. There was nobody with me, ya know. I dunno, it made me feel really accomplished for some reason. Just lil things like that. I was wondering if maybe I should speak to a counselor or psychologist about it or something. It's just an annoying obstacle to always have in my way and I'd like to fix it. Kinda hoping that the public speaking class will, in some way, help it fix itself. You wouldn't even think that just by talking to me, that I have that problem. XD I'm not sure what the cause of it is.
But yeah, it's been ok I guess. To be able to get out of the house and see faces and interact with people. Always a positive thing. There's a lot of truth to the fact that the sims have that lil "social" gauge. XD Met up with a few people I knew in hs. I'm a pretty recognizable person, I guess. Despite that fact that I'd changed haircolours a few times. XD Oh well. And Scott's been driving me home. ^.^ I think I wanna see if I can possibly get a job at Circuit City with him and if I can get the same hours or something. (If that's even possible) First they have a stupid personality test that I'd have to pass though. I really hate those and I honestly don't think they help the hiring process. I think it just confuses people and gives more opportunity for them to feel pressured into not being themselves. But, what do I know?
I need to start tagging all my entries. Sorry for always typing long entries haha.
I haven't been able to sleep, that's why. :/ I dunno why, I guess. 2 of the days I went to school it was on 3 hours of sleep, then I went on 1 hour, then yesterday I took a nap from like 5pm-12am and woke up. Been up since. I tried to go to sleep at like 2:30, but it didn't work. ^.^;; Gives me more time to perfect my eye makeup though. :) I love it. People probly think it's too much, but it just suits me. Yesterday I wore my Ben jersey to school and I was walking in the cafeteria and some guy was like "now that is unflattering". I dunno if he was talking about my eyemakeup or the fact that I was wearing a jersey that isn't exactly form-fitting. XD I was like o.O;; But, he might not have even been talking about me, I guess. So, whatever. Jealous.
Have some show and tell thing today for my public speaking class. I'm gonna bring the picture from Jade's dissolve show that she sent me. I was trying to think of something that I could talk about to the class and I was like "what means something to me? Well... Anything from Jade does..." Then, I thought of that print-out. hehe I swear this class... I feel like I've been enrolled in another drama class. -.-;; Which I am so over. We have to do like... The whole class is presentations in front of everyone. That's basically what your assignments are. Well, I don't have a problem speaking in front of groups of people, but it's just kinda like blah blah. I'm so over that, ya know? I've been through enough drama stuff, k thx. But, I dunno I spose it can't hurt me. Maybe it'll give me more self-esteem or something.
I've been thinking lately. Cause like, I think the people around me have helped me realize that I have like... Self-esteem and insecurity issues or something. Like, I don't like doing things alone or whatever... Like... I don't like calling places to ask questions about whatever or like going up to someone to ask them something. I just feel like I'm bothering them and I don't like being in places with lots of people because I feel like I'm in the way. (as small as I am, I know) And I don't like going to buffets or looking at clothes and shopping alone. And I don't think I could even eat at a sit down restaurant by myself. It just feels like everyone's staring at me and for some reason that bothers me. I know I just said I was comfortable speaking in front of groups of people, but it's not *really* the same thing. For instance, I kinda made a big deal because when I was in the Charlotte airport on my way home I went to a starbucks there and I ordered a mocha and I was by myself. There was nobody with me, ya know. I dunno, it made me feel really accomplished for some reason. Just lil things like that. I was wondering if maybe I should speak to a counselor or psychologist about it or something. It's just an annoying obstacle to always have in my way and I'd like to fix it. Kinda hoping that the public speaking class will, in some way, help it fix itself. You wouldn't even think that just by talking to me, that I have that problem. XD I'm not sure what the cause of it is.
But yeah, it's been ok I guess. To be able to get out of the house and see faces and interact with people. Always a positive thing. There's a lot of truth to the fact that the sims have that lil "social" gauge. XD Met up with a few people I knew in hs. I'm a pretty recognizable person, I guess. Despite that fact that I'd changed haircolours a few times. XD Oh well. And Scott's been driving me home. ^.^ I think I wanna see if I can possibly get a job at Circuit City with him and if I can get the same hours or something. (If that's even possible) First they have a stupid personality test that I'd have to pass though. I really hate those and I honestly don't think they help the hiring process. I think it just confuses people and gives more opportunity for them to feel pressured into not being themselves. But, what do I know?
I need to start tagging all my entries. Sorry for always typing long entries haha.