random stuff, that probably doesn't make sense...
This week i had tennis camp. It was hott monday and tuesday but wednesday and thursday weren't so bad. Monday kara spent the night. We had fun and just basically talked to people on here and ate cookie cake lol. Then tuesday i went over to kara's house with phillip and ben and we just hung out and watched part of Mulan and played bball in kara's room and were alarmingly amused by plastic cups...but that's another story for another time. I haven't done anything the past 3 nights, i feel like a loser haha. but lately i really have felt like a loser in some aspects of my life. don't worry guys you don't have to comment about this part trust me im not "fishing for compliments" like when gorgeous girls complain about not being pretty, but i really do feel like im just not good enough or something i think im just pmsing, hopefully that's it. Usually im a pretty optimistic person but idk just this week i've been...not myself i guess. I miss my friends i haven't seen a lot of yall in a while and idk. I think im overly emotional sometimes, like blow things waaaaaay out of proportion, i get too defensive and idk. I wish i was blessed with the ability to say the perfect thing to every comment like some people do. But i do have the ability to appear uptight and stressed in almost every social situation...yeah im sure that didn't make sense, i guess my point is...yes i stress a lot especially about school and well ok a lot of things but honestly, what girl doesn't? I guess i just have a tendancy to show it more. But im really not a strict and uptight person all the time and i HATE the fact that a lot of people, even friends think that i am. I love to have fun and i love to be laid back. I just think that people get the wrong image of me a lot of the time thinking that i won't have any fun and that im just a goody goody. That's one of my worst pet peeve's b/c I've kinda had that lable ever since elementary school and i hate it. I mean yes i consider myself a good person but im not a stereotypical "goody goody" that never has fun or take risks. I take risks, and i love to have fun with my friends, i joke around all the time and im not a freakin goody goody. Sometimes I think i do get caught in that image and a lot of times that hinders me from being myself even in front of my friends...b/c lately even a lot of times this summer i feel like i haven't been myself. I don't know what's wrong with me. I think i've been myself more with complete strangers than i have been with my friends b/c i have this image as the "goody goody" not saying that with complete strangers im bad or anything just...different- more outgoing and then with my friends i think im quieter a lot of times....idk its very odd. I guess I just get caught up in what my friends think of me too much i mean obviously they like me if we're friends, right? yeah idk.
We start school in less than 3 weeks, its exciting to me b/c with school comes tennis and all that good stuff, but it also means DRAMA. I HATE drama with a passion, for the ones that might be confused, im not talking about the department that put on OKLAHOMA last year, I'm talking about teenage girls (mostly) overreacting to something that one of their friends or someone else said about their clothes or their boyfriends or something else like that. Im sick of walking down the halls everyday hearing about how this person backstabbed or started rumors about someone else. I mean can't we all just grow up. I don't understand the logic in starting rumors about someone else, it just destroys the other person and causes stress and tension and people to take sides..i mean high school is hard enough and this just makes it even harder, so y can't we just try to be nice to people and just don't talk to the people we don't like, i mean if you don't like them, y even waste your time starting rumors....honestly, high school is supposed to be the time of our lives, y can't we all just get along..
Well I'm gonna go now so talk to you guys later, leave comments if you want to but if you don't i won't start talkin crap about you or anything ;) lol, i love yall