Sometimes I wonder...
Sometimes I really wonder why some things happen to some people. Ya know, I mean why do people meet certain people and get involved with them? What purpose did they serve? Was it to teach us a lesson, be it a bad one or good one? I don't know. Sometimes I just sit and think of all the people who have come and gone in my life and it is really sad. Some of the people I still keep in touch with, some hate my guts, some I rarely ever get to see, and some I see everyday of my life. It is really sad when you stop to think about it. Some of the people I don't even know if they are dead or alive. Some I want dead...haha...and others I wish I could keep alive forever. This past year of my life has taught me so much. It has gone by so quick and I feel like I was just there and in those situations. Then I think about all the times people hurt me, the times I hurt other people, the people I never really knew, and those that never really knew me...Don't ask me why I am writing this right now...who knows! All I know is for once in my life my priorities are straight and I know where I am going. However, part of me feels like everything I once knew and thought was stable is changing right before my eyes. I know this is odd and not really my kind of entry but oh well. I know there is change on the horizon. Especially for my family...and I really don't want to go there in this thing cause Lord knows I'll be writing all night long if I get started. All I know is my parents are treating me like an adult. They are letting me make my own decisions and they are trusting my judgment. It is soooo weird. I know I know...I'm 21 years old and most of you have had that freedom for some time now. It is new to me. Then again, my parents are so caught up in their own matters, that maybe it just feels like they are loosening the reigns some. Whatever the reasons, it's time to put the childish wants and instant gratifications aside and do what's best in the long run. Still, sitting here thinking about how selfish I have been and unreasonable...I just want to apologize to anyone that reads this if I hurt you or made you angry or got on your nerves or hell all of the above. Live journal is coming to an end for me I think...but who knows...it is me...lol