Tribute
I had a good time with Kelly while she was home, and as usual the visit was too short! We hung out at Eagle last night (read my MySpace blog for quotes) and joked around and laughed and acted goofy. I didn't have coffee - shocked? I also didn't have my midnight french toast. One of my favorite things about Kelly is her ability to put up with my silliness-and you've put up with it for what, the past 16 years?
...I think I should let you know I miss you with MOST of my heart when you're not around. The times I spend with you (and Travis and John and Mom2 and the whole family) are some of the times when I am the happiest. I didn't mind picking up John the other night (or driving him home) because it gave us a lot of time to talk. It's funny (weird?) but those might have been some of my first real conversations with him. My pool game was actually somewhat on for a change and we didn't fight and I didn't get upset about certain things (too much). You know me better than anyone (except maybe my family) and I would bet you know most of my secrets (if not all of them). Half the time I can't remember what I've told you and what I haven't-REPEAT! You have been there through EVERYTHING and that has always meant a lot to me. Even when I was in Pittsburgh, I managed to keep you updated on what was happening in my life. The 6 hour distance was hard because you weren't there to share in the laughter, hang out and do nothing, or protect me from something that was going to hurt me. I have never heard you say "I TOLD YOU SO". You were always supportive - and I'm sorry for not being as supportive as I should have been. I've made some REALLY bad choices, been hurt in ways that break my heart a million times, trusted some people I shouldn't have (and pushed away people I should have let in). I've failed at school,jobs,driving (parallel parking), relationships (friends, boyfriends, parents) and we've managed to find a way to laugh about it. When I was upset or had a problem, I came to you (or Nick or both) for advice and managed to make things work out. I learned that "even if he doesn't love me the way I want him to, he may be loving me the best way he knows how" and also, not to date people you knew in junior high. Sarah ALWAYS thought I was so secure in high school, you know what with the Ghetto Princess status I bragged about (and my Cowboys jacket and Timbs). To quote Mom2,"People are literally dying to get out of there, and you're dying to get in." I may be pretty and smart and bubbly, but that didn't stop people from finding something to tease me about. I am pretty sure most people saw through the facade, but it was a good way for me to learn how to be street smart and how to be strong. Some people still get under my skin. You drove me around because I refused to get my license ("I don't want no scrub, a scrub is a guy who gets no love from me, hanging out the passenger side of his best friends ride, trying to holla at me"). Nifty Fifty's is still the best milkshake in Philly, even though it's probably been a year since we went there.
So this is a tribute to you, my bestest friend in the whole world. We're going to be 26 this summer and while that's scary, it's also a sign of maturity (a little). Remember this, I stole the quote from you "Best friends grow up, but they never grow apart". I LOVE YOU.