...if i cud start over
me and tasha saw the all girl teen poetry slam tonite. it was tight! they had these amazing performers (ofcourse from urban word) to come up and spit there stuff. my 2 favorites were linda ching, and elizabeth something. they were hott. i was like omg i cant compare, but i said my poem anyway. first kiss. everytime i do that one, it sounds like im crying. it fits the poem, but i dont kno y my voice gets all choppy, when im not gonna cry at all. ppl seem to like it. gave me props for it, which felt nice, i still didnt win tho. i didnt expect to, cuz those other girls had some sick words. they were all ssooo good. those are the writers that inspire me. who i wanna be like.
...i wanted to visit tai's area again. i kno im obsessed. but i dont want anyone else but him. its like i cant get him off my mind. i cant get him out of me. hes inside my body, living in me, and he needs to be surgically removed from my mind.
i wish i cud start over
i wish i would have done ms bergins outline earlier so that i wud have went to mass tuesday instead of thursday.
i wish that if i went on thursday i wud have made myself busy so that i wudnt have looked that way
i wish i cud start over so that i wud have sat in mass and turned around and looked laur dead in her eyes and remember the past.
i wouldnt have been so stupid in church.
i wish i cud have ignored tai, walked away.
if i was given a second chance, and tai approached me as if for the first time. saying: "hi can i talk to u for a second..." blah blah i wud look him dead in his eye and say, "taalib...stop. i kno ur intentions and im ahead of you 100%. and the truth is, the amount of pain u caused me, will never add up to the amount of hurt ur gonna experience throughout ur years, and there will come a time when u look back on ur life and have regrets. u'll look back on the women in ur life, and if u so happen to come across me, always remember that u really couldve had something special. however u gave up on something great. something pure and innocent. love.
or i wudve said....with watering eyes..."taalib...i already have a boyfriend." and walk away
...i wanted to visit tai's area again. i kno im obsessed. but i dont want anyone else but him. its like i cant get him off my mind. i cant get him out of me. hes inside my body, living in me, and he needs to be surgically removed from my mind.
i wish i cud start over
i wish i would have done ms bergins outline earlier so that i wud have went to mass tuesday instead of thursday.
i wish that if i went on thursday i wud have made myself busy so that i wudnt have looked that way
i wish i cud start over so that i wud have sat in mass and turned around and looked laur dead in her eyes and remember the past.
i wouldnt have been so stupid in church.
i wish i cud have ignored tai, walked away.
if i was given a second chance, and tai approached me as if for the first time. saying: "hi can i talk to u for a second..." blah blah i wud look him dead in his eye and say, "taalib...stop. i kno ur intentions and im ahead of you 100%. and the truth is, the amount of pain u caused me, will never add up to the amount of hurt ur gonna experience throughout ur years, and there will come a time when u look back on ur life and have regrets. u'll look back on the women in ur life, and if u so happen to come across me, always remember that u really couldve had something special. however u gave up on something great. something pure and innocent. love.
or i wudve said....with watering eyes..."taalib...i already have a boyfriend." and walk away