::sheepish::Hi
anonymous
July 20 2004, 17:35:00 UTC
...hey Jill..It's Chris ...Well i don't know where to begin. I certainly dint expect my poem to greet me here. to reiiterate wat u've allready said, yea i do love the way u write. ur writing has clarity and rhythmn dat i do wish i have. i understand wat u mean wen u think that ur thoughts are all over the place and u jump from one subject to another. i do dat a lot too. "Lighthouse" is just one of the lucky ones dat don't ramble on too long and it's not about a different million things. do u know dat i have ur writing in a special place? it's kinda bare though 'cus u haven't given me n e thing to fill it with ::hint::hint:: The reason y i've gone into hiding is dat i think i've hurt enuff pple and i don't want to risk potentially hurting pple dat i care about. and mostly cus i'm ashamed. i've fallen Jill, and i fell real hard. pple have been trying to hold on to my hand so dat wen i went down, i kinda pulled them down with me--and dat is something i don't think i can ever forgive myself for doing. I dint know dat u wanted to talk to me. i really thought u were frustrated, just like everyone i knew, for putting them thru hell. we are close jill, but i dint want u to get too close--'cus look wat happened to the pple dat were dat close to me (Glen and Brian went through unecessary pain and suffering because of me). i do see myself in u too--but ur all the things i wish i could always be--strong, resiliant, insightful, vigorous, etc...we are a lot alike Jill (lol in a nutshell we're 2 crazy Sags who love to write, travel, and drama) and we are similar. u know how u love the symbol of the yin-yang? well das how i kinda see us. ur the light part with a piece of darkness and i'm the darkness with a tiny piece of the light one. If me and u were one girl--u'd be the best part of me and watch out cus here come the twisted reasoning of my mind: and i dint want to taint u.i dint want u to revisit all that u've allready left behind and u kinda did after i told u, even though i knew u'd understand. ohh dat Tai! wat a mother fucking asshole! darling, i know i've told u this b4 and so have a number of pple, but ur precious tears aren't worth an inch of that pond scum's cell! ur better off crying over a ripped t-shirt or something menial. he's a stupid schizo! it boggles the mind how dat thing had so many personalities! he's some type of shit--the worse--diarhea! and u'll see,Jill,he'll soon choke down on the very same shit he's been trying to feed everyone else. You're one beautiful brilliant girl and always remember dat u deserve so much more than wat most of these shitfucks have to offer. but i do know wat u mean about wanting to be in-love. cus it is a great feeling Jill, i know it is. it makes u feel happy and on top of the world and i can guarantee u, u'll find someone. he'll be nothing like dat toilet-sucker Tai. i know he seemed good and perfect for u at first but i know u'll be with someone a million times better dan dat cocksucking dick bitch! u'll find ur prince....no...wait....i think he'll find u. and he will be wonderful, he'll ride in on a gorgeous red 'stang filled with flowers and speaking like the Bard himself to sweep u off ur feet! and unlike me, u'll have the capacity to keep him forever and u two will make eachother so happy and have children--my future nieces and nephews. i will crawl out from watever rock i'm going to be hiding under to visit u in ur big house with the gardens,fountains, orchards, pools, and butlers. i am so certain of this. i'm right about this, u'll see, and wen i visit u in ur mansion and tell u how right i am ur going to owe me dinner and a penguin! i don't know wat ur schedule is like, but ur phone call is always welcome. and wen u can i'll hang out with u and mike,cus i feel really comfortable wit u two. i spoke to him yesterday and it made me feel a little better. and for goodness sake's jill, call the boy more often! or at least im him, so he could stop complaining about it to me. 'cus like me, he misses ur company. ~Chris
...Well i don't know where to begin. I certainly dint expect my poem to greet me here. to reiiterate wat u've allready said, yea i do love the way u write. ur writing has clarity and rhythmn dat i do wish i have. i understand wat u mean wen u think that ur thoughts are all over the place and u jump from one subject to another. i do dat a lot too. "Lighthouse" is just one of the lucky ones dat don't ramble on too long and it's not about a different million things. do u know dat i have ur writing in a special place? it's kinda bare though 'cus u haven't given me n e thing to fill it with ::hint::hint::
The reason y i've gone into hiding is dat i think i've hurt enuff pple and i don't want to risk potentially hurting pple dat i care about. and mostly cus i'm ashamed. i've fallen Jill, and i fell real hard. pple have been trying to hold on to my hand so dat wen i went down, i kinda pulled them down with me--and dat is something i don't think i can ever forgive myself for doing. I dint know dat u wanted to talk to me. i really thought u were frustrated, just like everyone i knew, for putting them thru hell. we are close jill, but i dint want u to get too close--'cus look wat happened to the pple dat were dat close to me (Glen and Brian went through unecessary pain and suffering because of me). i do see myself in u too--but ur all the things i wish i could always be--strong, resiliant, insightful, vigorous, etc...we are a lot alike Jill (lol in a nutshell we're 2 crazy Sags who love to write, travel, and drama) and we are similar. u know how u love the symbol of the yin-yang? well das how i kinda see us. ur the light part with a piece of darkness and i'm the darkness with a tiny piece of the light one. If me and u were one girl--u'd be the best part of me and watch out cus here come the twisted reasoning of my mind: and i dint want to taint u.i dint want u to revisit all that u've allready left behind and u kinda did after i told u, even though i knew u'd understand.
ohh dat Tai! wat a mother fucking asshole! darling, i know i've told u this b4 and so have a number of pple, but ur precious tears aren't worth an inch of that pond scum's cell! ur better off crying over a ripped t-shirt or something menial. he's a stupid schizo! it boggles the mind how dat thing had so many personalities! he's some type of shit--the worse--diarhea! and u'll see,Jill,he'll soon choke down on the very same shit he's been trying to feed everyone else.
You're one beautiful brilliant girl and always remember dat u deserve so much more than wat most of these shitfucks have to offer. but i do know wat u mean about wanting to be in-love. cus it is a great feeling Jill, i know it is. it makes u feel happy and on top of the world and i can guarantee u, u'll find someone. he'll be nothing like dat toilet-sucker Tai. i know he seemed good and perfect for u at first but i know u'll be with someone a million times better dan dat cocksucking dick bitch! u'll find ur prince....no...wait....i think he'll find u. and he will be wonderful, he'll ride in on a gorgeous red 'stang filled with flowers and speaking like the Bard himself to sweep u off ur feet! and unlike me, u'll have the capacity to keep him forever and u two will make eachother so happy and have children--my future nieces and nephews. i will crawl out from watever rock i'm going to be hiding under to visit u in ur big house with the gardens,fountains, orchards, pools, and butlers. i am so certain of this. i'm right about this, u'll see, and wen i visit u in ur mansion and tell u how right i am ur going to owe me dinner and a penguin!
i don't know wat ur schedule is like, but ur phone call is always welcome. and wen u can i'll hang out with u and mike,cus i feel really comfortable wit u two. i spoke to him yesterday and it made me feel a little better. and for goodness sake's jill, call the boy more often! or at least im him, so he could stop complaining about it to me. 'cus like me, he misses ur company.
~Chris
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