...the day you slipped away, was the day i found it wont be the same
bOrEd.....jiLL tHiS oNe'S fOr yOu* [Jul. 3rd, 2004|05:56 pm]
bl0ndeangel914
[ mood | thoughtful ]
today is by far one of the most boring days ever. i've been swimming in my pool by myself almost all day, and sitting with my dad on the pool deck getting half sunburnt and half tan. i was so bored that i came on here and started reading journals...like people's really old entries. i read a really old entry of jillian's and almost started crying. it said something about how she missed our laughs and our jokes, and i thought back to freshman yr. that was by far the best yr in hs...we had every class together, and all we did was laugh. it was funny how fast we connected, and just as fast as our friendship started, it's slipping away. JILLIAN IF U'RE READING THIS WE NEED TO HANG OUT LIKE OLD TIMES...WHETHER IT'S JUST THE 2 OF US OR THE ENTIRE OLD CREW IT NEEDS TO BE DONE. it was also kinda funny how i saw the way she's changed as i read the entries. thinking back to freshman yr, she was so quiet and shy around almost everyone but me, and she was the "good girl"...now i see that shes maturing in a lot of ways, but still has the same kind of views on certain things and i can sorta predict the way she'll act and think. for some reason i feel more comfortable around her than anyone else...well alexis too, but as far as the girls are concerned. i can say anything and she wont think im a freak, and we laugh at things that no one else would laugh at...sometimes we kinda have a sick sense of humor, but u know.
so i started thinking about how nice things used to be...like when jillian first introduced me and alexis and we would rush online every day to talk to each other but were always afraid to admit we liked each other. then when i finally told jillian, even tho everyone knew anyway. and our 3 way convos till like 7 in the morning...our trips to new roc and sportime...so much fun even tho me and alexis were like afraid of each other in person haha...but in a way, it was a nice feeling, and what we have now is so perfect...jill i owe u 1 ;)
i decided that high school officially sucked when jill left...freshman yr was great like i said before...sophomore yr was ok...we didnt have all of our classes together that yr, we only had one...then she left junior yr and my last 2 yrs at maria regina sucked so bad that i actually visited sacred heart and was seriously considering transferring. there were no more jokes in the hall in the morning haha when i would come out after homeroom...and no more visiting her table at lunch. o well at least it's all finally over. i'm done with my sob story now haha sorry to anyone who had the patience to read this...i'm really bored so my mind starts to wander...alexis i miss u!! i hope you're having fun in PA i wish i could be there...jillian call me!!
...that was an entry of natalie's...i didnt know she felt that way, and i kno ur gonna read this ms feil, so im gonna make this a personal statement and start off by saying i love u. not to be cheesy cuz u'll start to burst out laughing at the mushy-ness (is that even a word)of my confession. but im gonna be serious right now. i do miss you and our friendship has changed, and we're not as close as we once were. and i kno when u have a boyfriend, ppl's relationships change, and it happens, and its not necessarily a good or bad thing, and i understand that now. i was dealing with losing both u and alexis and even tho u werent really "gone" persay..u were slipping away, and that hurt me ,but i tried to deal. wen i look at how u guys are together i get happy and am glad i had a chance to know u both when u first started out. wen i look back im glad that i was apart of all the drama and fun times and hard times that the 3 of us have been thru. and u know the friendship b/w the 3 of us has come a looooooooong way. i look at how the 2 of u have changed and how its because of the both of u that made each other change, w/o realizing it. u trully are soulmates and im gonna miss both of u dearly. u have taught me to look at the bright side of life, and not take things so seriously. u have stuck up for me when i needed u most and taught me how to be a fighter. i cant even count the number of fun times we've had together and i have missed that alot. i kno im gonna miss that even more when i go away, and i look back on the past. things definately changed when i went to cathedral and thats when our friendship did too. theres was a time when i seriously considered transferring back cuz i missed it and i missed u, but i was also happy with cathedral and how my life really started to unfold while i was there. its like cathedral helped me find myself in a way maria regina cud never do. i do however think that if i stayed...our friendship wud have definately be closer, b/c we wud share experiences, but on another note my life wud be different. everything happens for a reason i guess. i cud go on, but id rather conclude before i get too emotional, and leave this here. we need to talk. that wud be nice
~CiAo~
bl0ndeangel914
[ mood | thoughtful ]
today is by far one of the most boring days ever. i've been swimming in my pool by myself almost all day, and sitting with my dad on the pool deck getting half sunburnt and half tan. i was so bored that i came on here and started reading journals...like people's really old entries. i read a really old entry of jillian's and almost started crying. it said something about how she missed our laughs and our jokes, and i thought back to freshman yr. that was by far the best yr in hs...we had every class together, and all we did was laugh. it was funny how fast we connected, and just as fast as our friendship started, it's slipping away. JILLIAN IF U'RE READING THIS WE NEED TO HANG OUT LIKE OLD TIMES...WHETHER IT'S JUST THE 2 OF US OR THE ENTIRE OLD CREW IT NEEDS TO BE DONE. it was also kinda funny how i saw the way she's changed as i read the entries. thinking back to freshman yr, she was so quiet and shy around almost everyone but me, and she was the "good girl"...now i see that shes maturing in a lot of ways, but still has the same kind of views on certain things and i can sorta predict the way she'll act and think. for some reason i feel more comfortable around her than anyone else...well alexis too, but as far as the girls are concerned. i can say anything and she wont think im a freak, and we laugh at things that no one else would laugh at...sometimes we kinda have a sick sense of humor, but u know.
so i started thinking about how nice things used to be...like when jillian first introduced me and alexis and we would rush online every day to talk to each other but were always afraid to admit we liked each other. then when i finally told jillian, even tho everyone knew anyway. and our 3 way convos till like 7 in the morning...our trips to new roc and sportime...so much fun even tho me and alexis were like afraid of each other in person haha...but in a way, it was a nice feeling, and what we have now is so perfect...jill i owe u 1 ;)
i decided that high school officially sucked when jill left...freshman yr was great like i said before...sophomore yr was ok...we didnt have all of our classes together that yr, we only had one...then she left junior yr and my last 2 yrs at maria regina sucked so bad that i actually visited sacred heart and was seriously considering transferring. there were no more jokes in the hall in the morning haha when i would come out after homeroom...and no more visiting her table at lunch. o well at least it's all finally over. i'm done with my sob story now haha sorry to anyone who had the patience to read this...i'm really bored so my mind starts to wander...alexis i miss u!! i hope you're having fun in PA i wish i could be there...jillian call me!!
...that was an entry of natalie's...i didnt know she felt that way, and i kno ur gonna read this ms feil, so im gonna make this a personal statement and start off by saying i love u. not to be cheesy cuz u'll start to burst out laughing at the mushy-ness (is that even a word)of my confession. but im gonna be serious right now. i do miss you and our friendship has changed, and we're not as close as we once were. and i kno when u have a boyfriend, ppl's relationships change, and it happens, and its not necessarily a good or bad thing, and i understand that now. i was dealing with losing both u and alexis and even tho u werent really "gone" persay..u were slipping away, and that hurt me ,but i tried to deal. wen i look at how u guys are together i get happy and am glad i had a chance to know u both when u first started out. wen i look back im glad that i was apart of all the drama and fun times and hard times that the 3 of us have been thru. and u know the friendship b/w the 3 of us has come a looooooooong way. i look at how the 2 of u have changed and how its because of the both of u that made each other change, w/o realizing it. u trully are soulmates and im gonna miss both of u dearly. u have taught me to look at the bright side of life, and not take things so seriously. u have stuck up for me when i needed u most and taught me how to be a fighter. i cant even count the number of fun times we've had together and i have missed that alot. i kno im gonna miss that even more when i go away, and i look back on the past. things definately changed when i went to cathedral and thats when our friendship did too. theres was a time when i seriously considered transferring back cuz i missed it and i missed u, but i was also happy with cathedral and how my life really started to unfold while i was there. its like cathedral helped me find myself in a way maria regina cud never do. i do however think that if i stayed...our friendship wud have definately be closer, b/c we wud share experiences, but on another note my life wud be different. everything happens for a reason i guess. i cud go on, but id rather conclude before i get too emotional, and leave this here. we need to talk. that wud be nice
~CiAo~