Getting Your Heart Broken
**WARNING*** Many Doctor Who Spoilers!
I feel the need to warn anyone and everybody about this post. First of all, it will most likely be all about Doctor Who. Second of all, I've been in a rather low mood so it may reflect that. I simply wanted to have a place to express my thoughts so I won't be offended if no one reads this.
Okay, so with that out of the way...
I've had such great reviews for my stories over at fanfiction.net. Honestly, I'm surprised at how much people seem to really like my stuff. I am oh so grateful. I have posted 5 stories, one of them is currently ongoing. Each has gotten positive reviews. My biggest "fan" right now is a 16 year old girl from Scotland who reviews all my stories. Fantastic!
I aways used to dream about writing stories and I secretly wanted to write a book when I was little. Of what? I have no idea. Lol. Anything I ever wrote I kept to myself...and then Doctor Who happened and for the first time I wanted to write stories about other people's characters. I've loved characters before: Jane Eyre, Melinda Sordino, Edward Cullen...just to name a few. But I never cared so much about characters and their story as I have about the Doctor & Rose. It may sound silly bit it's true. Is it the complexity of the characters? The fact that it's a sci fi show? I don't know really...
So, what got me thinking of all this? Well I received a different kind of review for my story "Almost" the other night. In it, the person asked me why we all (including her) like to watch such a heartbreaking show? She proceeded to tell me that my story had made her cry. Now, obviously I don't want to make anyone cry lol but what a compliment!
Anyway, she got me thinking...why do I watch and love a show that always hints at what I want but never gives it to me? As an example, Twilight eventually gives you what you want (for the most part, for me anyway) at the end of the story in Breaking Dawn. But Doctor Who dangles it in front of you, taunting you with might-be moments and then snatches it away from you when you get too close. They do it so well that it leaves me thinking if I've imagined the whole thing in the first place. I find myself asking Erick if he thinks the Doctor loved Rose at all...it's quite unusual to think about sometimes. I guess what it comes down to it, you want the lonely Time Lord to be happy and he seemed to be the most happy with Rose Tyler.
Not many people seem to like Rose, thinking she's selfish or childish...but I love her, I really do. Is it cuz she's my first companion? Maybe. I've seen Susan and her professors and I like Susan. I even like Sarah Jane to some extent (I've only seen stuff from the first and fourth Doctor). I don't like Martha and I did love Donna and Captain Jack...but for me no one compares to Rose. I guess it's because of her loyalty and the fact that if it would have been up to her, it would have been forever.
So anyway, I'd love for Rose and the Doctor to have SOMETHING so that i dont delude myself into thinking it's all in my head. But I know enough that his character can't ever have that. Part of me is excited for the new 11th Doctor, Matt Smith, so that i can get rid of some of the intensity of my Rose-and-the-Doctor obsession lol. I mean, my goodness, the jealousy I'd feel! Reinette, River Song...don't get me started. I'm looking forward to falling for other characters.
Still, I'll keeping missing them, my Doctor and Rose, and writing, forever giving them those special moments that exist only in my imagination.
And so perhaps I like getting my heart broken. Fictionally, of course.
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