Woah...

[jiima]

Okay... so I was really in a weird mood yesterday... I reread my last post and I'm all like... "Woah..." *shrug* Oh well... It was truth and I can't change that now. What I can do is actually update you on what's going on. I have an interview tomorrow at Cingular. At 4 PM tomorrow, I will be in Little Rock speaking to the face of my own future. Let's hope the future has good news. Besides that... things are pretty much the same as they've been for the past week or so... Nothing much I can do except smile and hope things are going well. As for work... I got really pissed off at work tonight because my manager is a prejudice prick with something against me. I don't know what it is, or what I did, but Jesus... she hates me... It's almost obvious enough that I want to start yelling at her... I mean... she's not hiding it, why should I? *shrug* Anyway... let's just hope things go well at Cingular tomorrow... I'd like to get out of the small town business atmosphere and work in a larger corporation, with hundreds of people... A place where I could get lost if I wanted to... Eh... some of you might say that it really sucks to just be another number... but that's part of the reason I've always wanted to move to and live in a larger city... I'm tired of living in places where everyone knows you and your family, and word travels around faster than myself on the Interstate... I'd like to move somewhere I could get lost. Somewhere I could be forgetten if I so chose... I just prefer the big city atmosphere... suffocating... and yet... it has it's own peace and serenity... A calm that comes in the jumble of a thousand sounds... utter silence is deafening to my ears, so I can hardly stand the country... Maybe one day I'll get my wish... until then I'll do what I can... Anyway, wish me luck tomorrow. I'll see you all around.

Here they come again! No I haven't forgotten! XD

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Bride - The Worm

You don't know how it feels to be me
To be sitting on the edge dangling my feet
Wondering if God would give his angels charge
If I were feeling small
If my mind was growing large...

I am the worm crawling through your head!
I am the worm crawling through your head!

You don't know how it feels to be me
Having all these faces looking in to see
Their eyes are white lit just like a torch
To burn my soul which is thin and which is worn...

I am the worm crawling through your head!
I am the worm crawling through your head!
I am the worm crawling through your head!
I am the worm crawling through your head!

Take my life...
Take my life...
Take my life...
Before I take it myself!!

You don't know how it feels to be me
To be a poet nailed to this tree
Where are my accusers those who ridicule
Those who have learned to hate and curse this silly fool

I am the worm crawling through your head!
I am the worm crawling through your head!
I am the worm crawling through your head!
I am the worm crawling through your head!

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