Blood soaked tears
Have you ever been so angry... so full of hatred, that you didn't know how to release it? So full of rage and spite that the only thing you had left to do was cry? That happened to me today... Today was... Today was just plain crap. I woke up and went in to work. Yeah... it's Monday, and Mondays are hard enough as it is. Well, after you put in 56 hours the week before, and barely got a weekend, coming in to work at 7:45 Monday morning really isn't fun at all. So the day's already pretty crappy. And what makes all this worse is the fact that the girl that got sick last week is still sick this week. So I'm on the schedule 7:45-4:45, and about the time 4 o'clock rolls around, we have to send one of our experienced closers to fill in at another branch, and in return we get the inexperienced teller from their branch. They have this idea that if we swap employees, the inexperienced girl is gonna get more experience. Which is true, but no excuse to short us on employees. At 4 o'clock, I was asked if I could stay and close. And of course... my response was:
"Yeah... sure..."
""It's not a problem is it Jeremy?""
"No Gwen, it's okay"
I mean seriously... what was I supposed to say? "Actually Gwen, I had a full evening planned of just sitting around on me arse, so is it alright if I can still get off at 5?" Yeah, right! So let's take a look at the past several days at work:
Thursday, 9 AM; Wesley's gone and I fill in for him. We are now short two tellers and I work 9-7:20 without a break.
Friday, 7:45 AM; Show up to open. Wesley is still out, so we're short two tellers again today and I work 7:45-7:20 without a break.
Saturday, 7:45 AM; Despite my deepest prayers to a God who stopped listening long ago, I still have to work on Saturday even after putting in 50 hours at work already this week. What's another 6 hours? <.<
Saturday, 2:10 PM; Finally get to put this damn place behind me and have some time off.
Sunday, 9:00'ish AM; Wake up and just roam around looking for things to do. Dreading the fact that this is the only full day off from work I'm going to have until next Sunday...
Monday, 7:45 AM; Show back up to work and think to myself... "I've been at this damn bank every hour that it's been open since 9AM Thursday morning..." Yup... that's right... if it was open, I was here. I work 7:45-7:40 today... we got out of there late because we had some late deposits and such. But hey.... at least I got a break today.... <.<
After work I didn't really wanna go home and sit around on all evening... so I returned a call to Shake's and went to Little Rock... but there's more to talk about here than I have time. I started this update last night about 12:30 and was too tired to finish. It's now 8:30 and time for me to get ready for work... Yay..... 9-7 today, most likely without a break...
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Submersed - Hollow
To you, I'm all I've left undone
I'm all I haven't won
Lift me up, my soul's so hollow
Lift me up...
You take the breath you didn't make
What's left you did forsake
Lift me up my soul's so hollow
Lift me up my soul's so hollow...
You can make me scream internally
You can make me breathe eternally
Yeah...
You see the things I cannot change
The things that make me plain
Lift me up my soul's so hollow
Lift me up...
We've made all from the sum of none
All that we have become
Lift me up my soul's so hollow
Lift me up my soul's so hollow...
You can make me scream internally
You can make me breathe eternally
You can make me scream internally
You can make me breathe eternally
Yeah
Fill, fill what's in me
Fill, fill what's in you
Fill, fill what's in me
So my soul's not left so hollow
You can make me scream!!
You can make me breathe!!
You can make me scream internally
You can make me breathe eternally
You can make me scream...
You can make me breathe...
You can make me scream...
You can make me breathe... (me breathe...)
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"Yeah... sure..."
""It's not a problem is it Jeremy?""
"No Gwen, it's okay"
I mean seriously... what was I supposed to say? "Actually Gwen, I had a full evening planned of just sitting around on me arse, so is it alright if I can still get off at 5?" Yeah, right! So let's take a look at the past several days at work:
Thursday, 9 AM; Wesley's gone and I fill in for him. We are now short two tellers and I work 9-7:20 without a break.
Friday, 7:45 AM; Show up to open. Wesley is still out, so we're short two tellers again today and I work 7:45-7:20 without a break.
Saturday, 7:45 AM; Despite my deepest prayers to a God who stopped listening long ago, I still have to work on Saturday even after putting in 50 hours at work already this week. What's another 6 hours? <.<
Saturday, 2:10 PM; Finally get to put this damn place behind me and have some time off.
Sunday, 9:00'ish AM; Wake up and just roam around looking for things to do. Dreading the fact that this is the only full day off from work I'm going to have until next Sunday...
Monday, 7:45 AM; Show back up to work and think to myself... "I've been at this damn bank every hour that it's been open since 9AM Thursday morning..." Yup... that's right... if it was open, I was here. I work 7:45-7:40 today... we got out of there late because we had some late deposits and such. But hey.... at least I got a break today.... <.<
After work I didn't really wanna go home and sit around on all evening... so I returned a call to Shake's and went to Little Rock... but there's more to talk about here than I have time. I started this update last night about 12:30 and was too tired to finish. It's now 8:30 and time for me to get ready for work... Yay..... 9-7 today, most likely without a break...
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Submersed - Hollow
To you, I'm all I've left undone
I'm all I haven't won
Lift me up, my soul's so hollow
Lift me up...
You take the breath you didn't make
What's left you did forsake
Lift me up my soul's so hollow
Lift me up my soul's so hollow...
You can make me scream internally
You can make me breathe eternally
Yeah...
You see the things I cannot change
The things that make me plain
Lift me up my soul's so hollow
Lift me up...
We've made all from the sum of none
All that we have become
Lift me up my soul's so hollow
Lift me up my soul's so hollow...
You can make me scream internally
You can make me breathe eternally
You can make me scream internally
You can make me breathe eternally
Yeah
Fill, fill what's in me
Fill, fill what's in you
Fill, fill what's in me
So my soul's not left so hollow
You can make me scream!!
You can make me breathe!!
You can make me scream internally
You can make me breathe eternally
You can make me scream...
You can make me breathe...
You can make me scream...
You can make me breathe... (me breathe...)
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