May 24, 2003 09:38
I have been entirely too moody recently. I honestly don't know what's up.
Yesterday I was great, when I went to the beach with Turp. It was just chill and relax and nothing mattered. I was in a goofy mood, and all was fun.
My jealousy has taken over in a lot of ways. I don't get it. Half the time I am totally ok with the thought of Bryan being with someone else, but then others it just gets under my skin, like it aint no thang. I guess this particular batch is based on the fact that I haven't really talked to him in this last week. I feel that I have lost him entirely. I realize that in some aspects that's alright. Did I really expect to be able to hold on to him? I guess more than anything it still hurts. It's to be expected but it's just a bummer some times. Oh well, whatever happens happens, and I can only try and put my best foot forward about the situation.
Therefore I am going to go do some laundry because its been god knows how long since I did that, and in all honesty my room has now become a war zone. Maybe I will work on some homework as well. That damn soapstone sculpture is going to be the end of me, I can already tell.