I'm looking for something to help me burnout bright.
I've been doing alot of thinking these days, About whats gonna happen in my life in the next few years....When I'm all done with school shit. And I am an Adult. Well still a teenager but more over 18.
I think i'll go to college, I was thinking about Japan....But I dunno.
Normally I don't make such long entries but today is an exception, I have quite a bit on my mind that I want to just throw out there.
I've been bent on my future. Like what will happen? or What am I going to do? ect ect ect. But with all the possible outcomes in my next couple years. Only a few I do want, But I'm not sure which one....I guess I'll wait and see what goes on to change my opinions about which to choose. But when I do actually make my choice. I hope it works out for me, If not I'll just stick with it and see how it goes from there. But honestly I worry myself a lot. *sigh* I worry about what I will do if things don't work out for me, if they don't I guess there isn't anything I can do about it. Right now one choice sticks out more than the others but, We'll see how that goes.
Yesterday I hung out with Aaron and was watching him play Shadowbane, It was pretty cool I guess, I played with Dirk his cool little Lizard(Bearded Dragon). He is actually warming up to People now he used to really like people when he was little but recently he was all pissed off at people. But when I went over he let me pick him up and pet him. T'was cool, I'd get one myself.
I found out my Grandpa Gerry has Cancer. That made me pretty sad. I guess we don't know how long he will live. Hopefully for awhile....I don't want him to die. *tear and sigh* I guess Thats life but I don't want to see a cheerful old man like him die from something painful.
I need to clean up my room its a fucking mess. Hopefully i'll do that today, If you talk to me please remind me, say "JOE YOU LAZY ASS, CLEAN YOUR FUCKING ROOM!!!".
I also need to quit smoking....Its such a bad habit, I mean people say "Why spend money on something that kills you? It shouldn't be that hard to quit!" You have obviously never been addicted to something. I mean not smoking for extended periods of time makes me like nervous, and kinda anxious, AND sorta agitated. Its bullshit, But I'm working my way down now, Hoorah for Lights. Blah I'm not gonna go down to Ultra Lights though After Lights I should be done.
On the other hand I don't really do anything except smoke Cigarettes. Yay for me.
I was thinking about Lance the other day and how he should just kick his pride and move back so he can actually make money before going back to MSUM but no, He says "There is nothing left for him here" but obviously after all the shit that happened to him there should be atleast something, I think he is going to be out of a place to stay (YET AGAIN), He has went through 3 cars, 2 places to stay, and 3 jobs, But he refuses to come back home, He is too fucking stubborn. And he is back with Liz? WTFShit? Why? He said he was so in "love" with Brandon's Ex-girlfriend, and that she "understood" him so much better than Liz. OBVIOUSLY NOT, He is back with Liz, He fucking said "I love you" to that other girl and stuff, But now? he is like "HURR!!! HURR!!! I LOVE LIZ." Jesus Christ man...Get it together.
Mike has been doing well, we got them Bookz and we have been having lots of fun playing that and reading them but you know, I think I will tell Mike somethings next time I see him, He is so damn understanding and caring. Its great to have a friend like him.
I've gotten back into RO kinda. Yay for Addicting games.
I think I'm gonna start getting more physical activity again, Maybe walk more, Weightlift with Jeremiah and such.
I mean I don't eat much at all, so I won't gain weight by doing nothing. But still getting into better shape is a great idea!
Well thats about all for my Long Ass Entry. Its mostly compiled of shit I've been thinking recently. Its all kind of depressing for me to think about.
I think i'll go to college, I was thinking about Japan....But I dunno.
Normally I don't make such long entries but today is an exception, I have quite a bit on my mind that I want to just throw out there.
I've been bent on my future. Like what will happen? or What am I going to do? ect ect ect. But with all the possible outcomes in my next couple years. Only a few I do want, But I'm not sure which one....I guess I'll wait and see what goes on to change my opinions about which to choose. But when I do actually make my choice. I hope it works out for me, If not I'll just stick with it and see how it goes from there. But honestly I worry myself a lot. *sigh* I worry about what I will do if things don't work out for me, if they don't I guess there isn't anything I can do about it. Right now one choice sticks out more than the others but, We'll see how that goes.
Yesterday I hung out with Aaron and was watching him play Shadowbane, It was pretty cool I guess, I played with Dirk his cool little Lizard(Bearded Dragon). He is actually warming up to People now he used to really like people when he was little but recently he was all pissed off at people. But when I went over he let me pick him up and pet him. T'was cool, I'd get one myself.
I found out my Grandpa Gerry has Cancer. That made me pretty sad. I guess we don't know how long he will live. Hopefully for awhile....I don't want him to die. *tear and sigh* I guess Thats life but I don't want to see a cheerful old man like him die from something painful.
I need to clean up my room its a fucking mess. Hopefully i'll do that today, If you talk to me please remind me, say "JOE YOU LAZY ASS, CLEAN YOUR FUCKING ROOM!!!".
I also need to quit smoking....Its such a bad habit, I mean people say "Why spend money on something that kills you? It shouldn't be that hard to quit!" You have obviously never been addicted to something. I mean not smoking for extended periods of time makes me like nervous, and kinda anxious, AND sorta agitated. Its bullshit, But I'm working my way down now, Hoorah for Lights. Blah I'm not gonna go down to Ultra Lights though After Lights I should be done.
On the other hand I don't really do anything except smoke Cigarettes. Yay for me.
I was thinking about Lance the other day and how he should just kick his pride and move back so he can actually make money before going back to MSUM but no, He says "There is nothing left for him here" but obviously after all the shit that happened to him there should be atleast something, I think he is going to be out of a place to stay (YET AGAIN), He has went through 3 cars, 2 places to stay, and 3 jobs, But he refuses to come back home, He is too fucking stubborn. And he is back with Liz? WTFShit? Why? He said he was so in "love" with Brandon's Ex-girlfriend, and that she "understood" him so much better than Liz. OBVIOUSLY NOT, He is back with Liz, He fucking said "I love you" to that other girl and stuff, But now? he is like "HURR!!! HURR!!! I LOVE LIZ." Jesus Christ man...Get it together.
Mike has been doing well, we got them Bookz and we have been having lots of fun playing that and reading them but you know, I think I will tell Mike somethings next time I see him, He is so damn understanding and caring. Its great to have a friend like him.
I've gotten back into RO kinda. Yay for Addicting games.
I think I'm gonna start getting more physical activity again, Maybe walk more, Weightlift with Jeremiah and such.
I mean I don't eat much at all, so I won't gain weight by doing nothing. But still getting into better shape is a great idea!
Well thats about all for my Long Ass Entry. Its mostly compiled of shit I've been thinking recently. Its all kind of depressing for me to think about.