Da Evolution
* Da road to medical school have been going less than smoothly. Three months into da application cycle...only one interview, three rejection letters, and still waiting to hear back from...count it....twelve schools. At dis point, ah have done everything ah can tryin' to be on top of mah game. Ah feel mentally exhausted waiting aimlessly to hear back, checking mah email compulsively... putting myself in a state of constant low anxiety, and that is no way to live. Ah've been gunning towards this single goal for da past five years...and now, things are no longer in my control. Ah was so hesitant to come back from New Mexico because ah felt like such a failure coming home, da future have never seemed so uncertain. Ah have always been moving forward in mah life...even if ah'm exploring different facets of mah being unrelated to a general goal. And now being back, ah feel stagnant. Everything is da familiar from da research lab to EnCore...coming off of such a high, ah'm feelin' restless and going stir-crazy. Da world offers so many options for me to go explore...ah would hate to waste dat time waiting in chance of an interview which may or may not happen.