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* Ah'm sorta seeing Derek...but where can this really go? Ah'm moving across da country in a week. Ah like spending time with him, just relaxin' and doing nothing...so unlike me. We watch a lotta QAF and LOGO, ahah...ah'm playing mad catch up. Ah know this is an asshole thing to say, but ah still don't know if ah like him, or ah just like having someone who likes me so much...which is certainly not fair to him.
* To make things more complicated...ah finally hung out with Dave after almost two years. Repressed feelings started to surface again despite my best efforts to stay in control. We picked up without missing a step, just drinking beer at Leopold's and enjoying some of the best conversation ah've had in a long time. At one point, he said hypothetically "if you and ah were dating...", my heart almost burst. Real Detroit magazine even came to take our picture for their "Out and About" section. But ah can't live in the "maybes" of da world, ah can't wait for a morsel of attention every two fuckin years. Da truth is still dat we would never make it...somewhere down da line, we would break up because we just want different things in life...why then do ah still feel like ah'm losing mah soulmate?
* Went for a beach day on Lake Huron, da perfect day filled with plenty of sun, sports, relaxin', grillin', good friends, good ol' fun, and ice cream. Ah'm really dark now...ah'm gonna miss Michigan so much :(.
* To make things more complicated...ah finally hung out with Dave after almost two years. Repressed feelings started to surface again despite my best efforts to stay in control. We picked up without missing a step, just drinking beer at Leopold's and enjoying some of the best conversation ah've had in a long time. At one point, he said hypothetically "if you and ah were dating...", my heart almost burst. Real Detroit magazine even came to take our picture for their "Out and About" section. But ah can't live in the "maybes" of da world, ah can't wait for a morsel of attention every two fuckin years. Da truth is still dat we would never make it...somewhere down da line, we would break up because we just want different things in life...why then do ah still feel like ah'm losing mah soulmate?
* Went for a beach day on Lake Huron, da perfect day filled with plenty of sun, sports, relaxin', grillin', good friends, good ol' fun, and ice cream. Ah'm really dark now...ah'm gonna miss Michigan so much :(.