bubble of thoughts
Hey journal,
its been awhile. Not many people read you, so i dont mind coming and going when i please. You're also just my computer journal. But dont let that hurt your feelings. i still care for you =)
My father is depresed. Something tells me to just ignore it. But then something tells me i should do something to make him feel happy. Like bring him something to eat at his work for lunch. I think he may get laid off his job again. The other day i was over at my mothers house and he was upstairs sleeping for more then 5 hours. It was just weird, because he did not work the night before and he never stays the night over my mothers house. I know there is deffenently something going on. I am very curious.
Have you ever had some one you could tell anything to? Some one you could tell your deepest , darkest secrets to?
funny thing is, i dont think i could ever meet someone like that. I can tell a lot of things to my sister. I told almost everything to a close friend. But There are somethings i could never tell anyone. It kinda hurts. Because i am sure i could probably tell someone. I just would never do that cause i would never want that person to think wrongly of me. I guess there are secrets that everyone has. And they keeped tucked away from the world like i do. it makes me very coushious. makes you think what others deep dark secrests could be? because i think everyone has something to hide. Maybe my daughter could be someone i can talk to in the future. Not while she is still a baby, toddler, or teen ager. But when she grows up. We can talk like how real friends are sopossed to. But with a deeper connection, because she is my child. I can sure talk to her now. But later in life like when she is a toddler, and teen, i cant talk to her like a friend, because then i would not be being a mother. I have to be a mother first. Because friends dont tell you what you can and can not do. I think i will be a great mom. Then after a great friend.
Lonnie has been telling me something new about his life almost ever day now. Maybe one day i will know everything. But maybe not. I dont know if it is possible to know someone inside and out. But i think it is something worth striving for.
amanda
its been awhile. Not many people read you, so i dont mind coming and going when i please. You're also just my computer journal. But dont let that hurt your feelings. i still care for you =)
My father is depresed. Something tells me to just ignore it. But then something tells me i should do something to make him feel happy. Like bring him something to eat at his work for lunch. I think he may get laid off his job again. The other day i was over at my mothers house and he was upstairs sleeping for more then 5 hours. It was just weird, because he did not work the night before and he never stays the night over my mothers house. I know there is deffenently something going on. I am very curious.
Have you ever had some one you could tell anything to? Some one you could tell your deepest , darkest secrets to?
funny thing is, i dont think i could ever meet someone like that. I can tell a lot of things to my sister. I told almost everything to a close friend. But There are somethings i could never tell anyone. It kinda hurts. Because i am sure i could probably tell someone. I just would never do that cause i would never want that person to think wrongly of me. I guess there are secrets that everyone has. And they keeped tucked away from the world like i do. it makes me very coushious. makes you think what others deep dark secrests could be? because i think everyone has something to hide. Maybe my daughter could be someone i can talk to in the future. Not while she is still a baby, toddler, or teen ager. But when she grows up. We can talk like how real friends are sopossed to. But with a deeper connection, because she is my child. I can sure talk to her now. But later in life like when she is a toddler, and teen, i cant talk to her like a friend, because then i would not be being a mother. I have to be a mother first. Because friends dont tell you what you can and can not do. I think i will be a great mom. Then after a great friend.
Lonnie has been telling me something new about his life almost ever day now. Maybe one day i will know everything. But maybe not. I dont know if it is possible to know someone inside and out. But i think it is something worth striving for.
amanda