im always wondering....
well....i go for long periods of time not updating. oh well. ive been busy lately. school has gotten a lil hectic. i have alot of work due this week. work has been going well. i had to call out a couple times because my car broke down. it was $224 to get it fixed. then my little sister came home with austin, for almost two weeks. wow that was fun. i miss her alot! and austin. my nephew is the most adorable baby ever. i hate that hes not around, i want to watch him grow. i taught him how to give HIGH FIVES! he laughs like a kid. hes so cute too, maggie gave him a mohawk!! i miss them.
i was sick a couple weekends ago. but im getting over it. sinus issues. blah. i went to philly to help josh find an apartment like two weeks ago. we found this awesome place, three bedrooms, HUGE living room, dining room, kitchen, washer and dryer, really big...only $800 a month! but its definatly right on the block. hahaha. i went up there this past weekend....left on friday night, and it wasnt too bad of a drive. it was so much fun. we just chilled me and him and his brother ian. it was definatly good times. i made a collage for him to remember the fun in maryland when he gets lonely. hes not use to creative things like that. i mean he is from me...but his friends always say shit and give him a hard time about things like that, i only think its normal. to make people things. you know? josh is my best friend and i miss him sooo much!!! lol. but now i get to go to philly and hang out whenever i want. ive been thinking about moving up there for the summer. i asked him. but i probably wont.
since my dad moved out, things have been really tight with money. my mom is basically broke, so we had to get rid of our internet and cable. we have the $10 basic cable now. so i think my mom is going to sell our house. ive lived in it since i was in 7th grade. :( but i understand if we cant afford it anymore. my dad is a money crazy jerkface sometimes. him and my mom have the worse kind of relationship. its like my dad tries to be like her father. he doesnt talk to her like shes his equal. it sucks. shes older than him too, but he has issues. and im glad they arent together anymore, but i wish my dad could just grow up a little bit. so when she sells the house we're going to get a townhouse i believe. that should be fun. hopefully. i need a change. somewhere. in something. im so tired of the same thing. i need something different.
my auntie is staying with us because shes babysitting my older sisters little boy. so thats a nice change. shes so nice. i really like her. one night my mom got a lil drunk and was being very loud and i was soo embarassed because my auntie doesnt drink anymore, and i didnt know what she was thinking and i was just embarassed.
i went to this awesome exhibit called Body Worlds. in philly. it was awesome. real human corpses plasticized. it was pretty awesome exhibit. they wouldnt let us take pictures though. and it was really hot in the rooms because they were sooo crowded. but the work was amazing. www.bodyworlds.com
i have so much work to do today, for my art education class. i dont wanna. but i have to. i have a pop-up book to do. i picked frieda kahlo. i have to do atleast two pop up techniques. it shouldnt be so hard, but i just have to start it. i have to type up some reflections too on a couple chapters in my art education book. not too hard. only one page each.
so yesterday i hung out with my old friend Timmy. i saw him at the bank, and we stopped and talked to eachother and exchanged numbers, and he apologized for just not talking to me anymore. he said that the day i came to denny's and brought him a sprite and a candy bar, it freaked him out because he felt like he was getting into something serious. but i told him it wasnt like that, im just a nice person and wanted to do something nice for him. and he apologzied again and said he realized that. but anyway, we hung out yesterday. drove around in his jeep. its real nice. we had a good time. hes a little crazy. hahaha like im not. lol. but it was definatly good times! then i came home, and went back out to my friend brian's. hes staying in a hotel right now cause his parents kicked him out. so i went to keep him company. we had a good time. yeah. a very nice time.
and now im in the library. trying to not procrastinate but im sooo good at it!!!!!
i decided that, i know why i havent wanted to or tried to keep a relationship. because im not ready hahaha. really? really! im not ready to be serious, or committed just yet. i need to finish school. i need to work on me. i need to focus on me. i need to work on my relationship with my father and my feelings towards him. cause they are definatly hindering me from being in a relationship. my sisters say i suppress my feelings and instead of facing a situation...i just say whatever and ignore it. well i know that its bad if i do it too much. i know choosing your battles is important, but theres a difference between doing that and just being numb to things. i do suppress my feelings towards people sometimes. especially my father, and men. i guess thats easier for me to deal with. but in the long run its a bad bad bad thing. so im working on that.
so i still have this really annoying cough. i wish it would go away. speaking of going away. i have to go.
i was sick a couple weekends ago. but im getting over it. sinus issues. blah. i went to philly to help josh find an apartment like two weeks ago. we found this awesome place, three bedrooms, HUGE living room, dining room, kitchen, washer and dryer, really big...only $800 a month! but its definatly right on the block. hahaha. i went up there this past weekend....left on friday night, and it wasnt too bad of a drive. it was so much fun. we just chilled me and him and his brother ian. it was definatly good times. i made a collage for him to remember the fun in maryland when he gets lonely. hes not use to creative things like that. i mean he is from me...but his friends always say shit and give him a hard time about things like that, i only think its normal. to make people things. you know? josh is my best friend and i miss him sooo much!!! lol. but now i get to go to philly and hang out whenever i want. ive been thinking about moving up there for the summer. i asked him. but i probably wont.
since my dad moved out, things have been really tight with money. my mom is basically broke, so we had to get rid of our internet and cable. we have the $10 basic cable now. so i think my mom is going to sell our house. ive lived in it since i was in 7th grade. :( but i understand if we cant afford it anymore. my dad is a money crazy jerkface sometimes. him and my mom have the worse kind of relationship. its like my dad tries to be like her father. he doesnt talk to her like shes his equal. it sucks. shes older than him too, but he has issues. and im glad they arent together anymore, but i wish my dad could just grow up a little bit. so when she sells the house we're going to get a townhouse i believe. that should be fun. hopefully. i need a change. somewhere. in something. im so tired of the same thing. i need something different.
my auntie is staying with us because shes babysitting my older sisters little boy. so thats a nice change. shes so nice. i really like her. one night my mom got a lil drunk and was being very loud and i was soo embarassed because my auntie doesnt drink anymore, and i didnt know what she was thinking and i was just embarassed.
i went to this awesome exhibit called Body Worlds. in philly. it was awesome. real human corpses plasticized. it was pretty awesome exhibit. they wouldnt let us take pictures though. and it was really hot in the rooms because they were sooo crowded. but the work was amazing. www.bodyworlds.com
i have so much work to do today, for my art education class. i dont wanna. but i have to. i have a pop-up book to do. i picked frieda kahlo. i have to do atleast two pop up techniques. it shouldnt be so hard, but i just have to start it. i have to type up some reflections too on a couple chapters in my art education book. not too hard. only one page each.
so yesterday i hung out with my old friend Timmy. i saw him at the bank, and we stopped and talked to eachother and exchanged numbers, and he apologized for just not talking to me anymore. he said that the day i came to denny's and brought him a sprite and a candy bar, it freaked him out because he felt like he was getting into something serious. but i told him it wasnt like that, im just a nice person and wanted to do something nice for him. and he apologzied again and said he realized that. but anyway, we hung out yesterday. drove around in his jeep. its real nice. we had a good time. hes a little crazy. hahaha like im not. lol. but it was definatly good times! then i came home, and went back out to my friend brian's. hes staying in a hotel right now cause his parents kicked him out. so i went to keep him company. we had a good time. yeah. a very nice time.
and now im in the library. trying to not procrastinate but im sooo good at it!!!!!
i decided that, i know why i havent wanted to or tried to keep a relationship. because im not ready hahaha. really? really! im not ready to be serious, or committed just yet. i need to finish school. i need to work on me. i need to focus on me. i need to work on my relationship with my father and my feelings towards him. cause they are definatly hindering me from being in a relationship. my sisters say i suppress my feelings and instead of facing a situation...i just say whatever and ignore it. well i know that its bad if i do it too much. i know choosing your battles is important, but theres a difference between doing that and just being numb to things. i do suppress my feelings towards people sometimes. especially my father, and men. i guess thats easier for me to deal with. but in the long run its a bad bad bad thing. so im working on that.
so i still have this really annoying cough. i wish it would go away. speaking of going away. i have to go.