More Babbling
Well I did my shopping with my mom and it all went fine. I have almost everything I need, just need some minor stuff. Anyways i feel like i'm in one of those deep moods like i wanna talk with someone and get into a good discussion...but no one really wants to :( I have been liking a lot about life lately and how it just doesn't make any sense and i know it's not supposed to but couldn't it just a little? I just want to be able to tell everyone exactly what i'm thinking and for them to tell me exactly what they are thinking. i don't want lying about feelings. i just want things to be simple. i want to be a little kid. i want to have no worries. that would be the life, no worries. i seem to worry about everything lately. and i hate that. i hate worrying about other people. i never want to hurt anyone's feelings and it just sucks. lately i've been putting my feelings on the line, which i haven't done in a while. anyways i put these feelings out on the limb and i get nothing in return. i'm trying to be honest but i don't know what the hell is happening. part of me wants to forget about everything in the past and just move forward, but the other part of me keeps going back. not to Nate for those of you thinking that. i just am confused and scared about everything. i dont know like i said i wish life was just simple.
so now i'm listening to these sappy love songs...why? cause they are the best. i love sad songs. i like to dream that these love stories would happen to me. in which i know they won't but it's nice to dream. i just want one of those perfect movie relationships...the ones where you get tingles everytime you kiss him, you get tingles everytime you touch him...even when you talk to him. i want him to do everything right at exactly the right moments. to turn my chin and kiss me ever so softly, to make me laugh when i'm sad, to make me smile all the time, for me to never have a sad look on my face...oh sorry i think i was just daydreaming again. anyways why can't things just be like that?? maybe i'll find that one, the one who does all these things...just maybe.
so i've decided the other day while at work that i want to retire now. i want enough money to live on and i want to be retired. i'm already sick of working and i'm young! i don't know if i can do it all day everyday. it's hard enough for me to work at my mom's office and it's not exactly "real" i mean i get away with stuff. ehhh...i'm disgusted with the thought of working for like 50 years! anyways i'm kinda out of things to write about at the moment
so now i'm listening to these sappy love songs...why? cause they are the best. i love sad songs. i like to dream that these love stories would happen to me. in which i know they won't but it's nice to dream. i just want one of those perfect movie relationships...the ones where you get tingles everytime you kiss him, you get tingles everytime you touch him...even when you talk to him. i want him to do everything right at exactly the right moments. to turn my chin and kiss me ever so softly, to make me laugh when i'm sad, to make me smile all the time, for me to never have a sad look on my face...oh sorry i think i was just daydreaming again. anyways why can't things just be like that?? maybe i'll find that one, the one who does all these things...just maybe.
so i've decided the other day while at work that i want to retire now. i want enough money to live on and i want to be retired. i'm already sick of working and i'm young! i don't know if i can do it all day everyday. it's hard enough for me to work at my mom's office and it's not exactly "real" i mean i get away with stuff. ehhh...i'm disgusted with the thought of working for like 50 years! anyways i'm kinda out of things to write about at the moment