Thansk hunny bunny!
lolz whenever people read my blog it makes me feel really happy even though I feel really emberressed when I write it, so if you like it leave me a comment or something!
Don't have anthing really ground breaking or exciting to write about. I got a presentation for work tomorrow, but our code is in a working state. We will wing some sort of presentation tomorrow and go from there! So i like lists though so we'll bust them out.
Things that make me happy:
1. Free beer. Free guisness makes it even better! Nothing like almost ending a week with free beer w00t
2. Talking to people like 5 years out of college. Old people always have such fascinating stories. They've just done a whole lot more in their lives. Its refreshing. People in college just lack the same depth? I know that souns sort of conceeded, but I always feel like i get such better advice from the older folks. So thanks nan! I got advice from a bunch of MIt grads today about classes and about going to wellsley hahaha
3. Blogging: I didn't think I would enjoy it this much. But getting all the thoughts that bottle up in my head is really enjoyable. I think one reason I really liked having a girlfriend was it gave me a place I could word vomit onto. I just like talking hahaha. Since I no longer have a gf and feel bad subjecting my friends to word vomit, I can word vomit here and have my friends read it.
4. Running. Hardest run ever. Had to walk like 3 times but it was 4.5 miles so i will accept it. It was tough, but when i don't run I feel bad and when I do run I feel good physically. Those endorphins kick ass.
5. Heat. Its 73 degrees In my room holy shit. My room's heater dosent really work so it got down to like 55 once.
6. Being happy. Idk, after being sad for a large part of the semester whenever I am happy it feels good. I know its gonna end eventually and I will be sad, but for now enjoy the wave right?
7. music. Music has an amazing effect. Some songs will make me really sad, others bring me up, and others more will make me feel really pensive. Current songs I cant get enough of:
a. Live like were dying by kris allen
b. do you remember by JAAAAAY SEAAAAN
c. The Scientists by coldplay that one makes me sad though
d. Human by the killers. Are we dancers? cause i kinda wish I was
e. Gravity Sara barralis. Reminds me of getting away from Minh
f. Fidely by Regina Spektor? Reminds me of linley. Closet of the freshman girl quad to me currently. So excited for her to come stay with me (I keep talking about this sorry but I am excited. Shes gonna make me rice yummy)
8. My friends. Current and past. Friends are a RIDDLE, but a great one :P.
8's my favorite number, so for today we'll make all our lists numbered 8. 8's my jersey number. I was the 8th person to join zbt my year, its also jenny's favorite number where i got it from so haha
8 things that mkake me sad:
1. Not talking with Minh. If i were talking with Minh I would be sad to, it just dosnet work. Its just depressing that we were so close and now we cant carry out a conversation.
2. My future. The future is a poop :(. but I have confidence that I will land on my feet somewhere. Hopefully I land in a pile of money and a cute girl inside it though :P
3. My parents coming this weekend. Its my sister and my mother and idk... I had a lot of fun last weekend hanging out with buddies and now I basically have to babysit my sister and my mother. I will get to go see the lion king though, but still...
4.. The Working life. I love not having homework and having your weekends free, but its lonely. I come home and who do I see? no one. At mit I get to see people all the time and sure I get sick of seeing the same people all the time, but at least I am around people and can bounce ideas off them. Here Im just like meh.... Ill go online, watch some tv, and chat boring as shit dog.
5. The friend zone. >.< girls arn't rational and I understand that. sucks though
6. Not getting enough hugs and just not being close physcially to someone. NOT IN THE SEX SENSE, but just like being next to someone. Sex dosent crack the top 5 things I miss about being in a relationship. I dont even think its like top10? lets see. a. Having someone to talk to, not about stuff just about everything. b. spooning. Sounds dumb, but until youve done it naked you can't talk. c. having someone to each lunch with. Being able to destress about your day makes a big difference. d. Sex. okay so i lied hahaha. its been a while and it creeps up with each day. e. gchatting with the person. I know its similar to talking, but when I am at work I really need to chat with people to stay sane and the dumb shit i say I could say with minh. f. A sense of purpose. I know you shouldn't find meaning in the otherperson, but having a gf motivated me in a lot of ways. I wanted to look good for minh. I think she made me a better person.
7. Not sleeping well. Ive started not being able to sleep well again. I'm waking up randomly in the middle of the night again. Idk I guess i do feel pretty stressed about work.
8. Stress. I think this laura thing+work is freakin me out in some ways. I really want to drink alcohol a lot more than is good for me. Its a bad way to deal with it, but its happening.
p.s. I am really happy that it was alot easier for me to right the happy list than the sad list. peace out! maybe more tomorrow? we'll see.
Don't have anthing really ground breaking or exciting to write about. I got a presentation for work tomorrow, but our code is in a working state. We will wing some sort of presentation tomorrow and go from there! So i like lists though so we'll bust them out.
Things that make me happy:
1. Free beer. Free guisness makes it even better! Nothing like almost ending a week with free beer w00t
2. Talking to people like 5 years out of college. Old people always have such fascinating stories. They've just done a whole lot more in their lives. Its refreshing. People in college just lack the same depth? I know that souns sort of conceeded, but I always feel like i get such better advice from the older folks. So thanks nan! I got advice from a bunch of MIt grads today about classes and about going to wellsley hahaha
3. Blogging: I didn't think I would enjoy it this much. But getting all the thoughts that bottle up in my head is really enjoyable. I think one reason I really liked having a girlfriend was it gave me a place I could word vomit onto. I just like talking hahaha. Since I no longer have a gf and feel bad subjecting my friends to word vomit, I can word vomit here and have my friends read it.
4. Running. Hardest run ever. Had to walk like 3 times but it was 4.5 miles so i will accept it. It was tough, but when i don't run I feel bad and when I do run I feel good physically. Those endorphins kick ass.
5. Heat. Its 73 degrees In my room holy shit. My room's heater dosent really work so it got down to like 55 once.
6. Being happy. Idk, after being sad for a large part of the semester whenever I am happy it feels good. I know its gonna end eventually and I will be sad, but for now enjoy the wave right?
7. music. Music has an amazing effect. Some songs will make me really sad, others bring me up, and others more will make me feel really pensive. Current songs I cant get enough of:
a. Live like were dying by kris allen
b. do you remember by JAAAAAY SEAAAAN
c. The Scientists by coldplay that one makes me sad though
d. Human by the killers. Are we dancers? cause i kinda wish I was
e. Gravity Sara barralis. Reminds me of getting away from Minh
f. Fidely by Regina Spektor? Reminds me of linley. Closet of the freshman girl quad to me currently. So excited for her to come stay with me (I keep talking about this sorry but I am excited. Shes gonna make me rice yummy)
8. My friends. Current and past. Friends are a RIDDLE, but a great one :P.
8's my favorite number, so for today we'll make all our lists numbered 8. 8's my jersey number. I was the 8th person to join zbt my year, its also jenny's favorite number where i got it from so haha
8 things that mkake me sad:
1. Not talking with Minh. If i were talking with Minh I would be sad to, it just dosnet work. Its just depressing that we were so close and now we cant carry out a conversation.
2. My future. The future is a poop :(. but I have confidence that I will land on my feet somewhere. Hopefully I land in a pile of money and a cute girl inside it though :P
3. My parents coming this weekend. Its my sister and my mother and idk... I had a lot of fun last weekend hanging out with buddies and now I basically have to babysit my sister and my mother. I will get to go see the lion king though, but still...
4.. The Working life. I love not having homework and having your weekends free, but its lonely. I come home and who do I see? no one. At mit I get to see people all the time and sure I get sick of seeing the same people all the time, but at least I am around people and can bounce ideas off them. Here Im just like meh.... Ill go online, watch some tv, and chat boring as shit dog.
5. The friend zone. >.< girls arn't rational and I understand that. sucks though
6. Not getting enough hugs and just not being close physcially to someone. NOT IN THE SEX SENSE, but just like being next to someone. Sex dosent crack the top 5 things I miss about being in a relationship. I dont even think its like top10? lets see. a. Having someone to talk to, not about stuff just about everything. b. spooning. Sounds dumb, but until youve done it naked you can't talk. c. having someone to each lunch with. Being able to destress about your day makes a big difference. d. Sex. okay so i lied hahaha. its been a while and it creeps up with each day. e. gchatting with the person. I know its similar to talking, but when I am at work I really need to chat with people to stay sane and the dumb shit i say I could say with minh. f. A sense of purpose. I know you shouldn't find meaning in the otherperson, but having a gf motivated me in a lot of ways. I wanted to look good for minh. I think she made me a better person.
7. Not sleeping well. Ive started not being able to sleep well again. I'm waking up randomly in the middle of the night again. Idk I guess i do feel pretty stressed about work.
8. Stress. I think this laura thing+work is freakin me out in some ways. I really want to drink alcohol a lot more than is good for me. Its a bad way to deal with it, but its happening.
p.s. I am really happy that it was alot easier for me to right the happy list than the sad list. peace out! maybe more tomorrow? we'll see.