As if on cue
Right after I posted that I needed things to go smoothly lest I melt down, everything went wrong.
I finally pulled myself together enough to get started on the important parts of my to-do list (not the angry notes part), and I got one bad news item after another. And tomorrow is my wedding anniversary and...meltdown.
I had my first panic attack in years.
Toby talked me through it and offered as much comfort as he could from his office, and I eventually calmed down enough to take care of a few essential errands before coming back home and collapsing into bed. I've canceled my plans for tonight and I'm going to take a nap now, because if I can't make my problems go away, at least I can sleep through them for a little bit. Super healthy, I know. Don't judge me.
I'm going hiking with Mary & Gwen and Mary's parents tomorrow. It will be good to be out in nature and in the company of wonderful people. Gwen is a good anti-depressant, too.
I finally pulled myself together enough to get started on the important parts of my to-do list (not the angry notes part), and I got one bad news item after another. And tomorrow is my wedding anniversary and...meltdown.
I had my first panic attack in years.
Toby talked me through it and offered as much comfort as he could from his office, and I eventually calmed down enough to take care of a few essential errands before coming back home and collapsing into bed. I've canceled my plans for tonight and I'm going to take a nap now, because if I can't make my problems go away, at least I can sleep through them for a little bit. Super healthy, I know. Don't judge me.
I'm going hiking with Mary & Gwen and Mary's parents tomorrow. It will be good to be out in nature and in the company of wonderful people. Gwen is a good anti-depressant, too.