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I had my first return weigh-in at WW this morning. Last night I had stress dreams about it all night. In my first dream, I had actually gained weight. I was devastated, because I've been working really hard to follow the program, and I've been faithfully tracking, and I felt like shit, if I can't lose weight even when I'm doing everything right, then fuck it. But then I woke up and was relieved to find I was only dreaming. Then I had another dream where I weighed in and had lost around a pound. The program is set up to give you a 0.5-2.0-pound weekly loss if you follow it properly. So 1 pound is good and I was relieved in my dream to have lost some weight, but also disappointed because I feel like in my first week on program, I should probably have a bigger loss. Every other time I've restarted after being off the program for a while, I've had like 3-pound losses in the first week. So anyway, I was really nervous going into my meeting today. I was trying to mentally prepare myself for any result, and to keep going even if it wasn't what I'd wanted to see.
I lost 6.4 pounds in a week.
I think part of that is because with my parents visiting, I was overeating, and had probably ballooned up a little extra just before my weigh-in. I was healthy last week; it's not like I starved myself. I ate my full allowance of points every day and used up the entire weekly allowance, also. So I'm really pleased.
But I also know that I can't expect anything close to this moving forward, and I'll have to be happy with a pound or so next time I weigh in. I'll be disappointed if I have a gain this week, but I'll still be down from where I started (barring something crazy!), and I'm just going to keep going. But I'm hopeful. I set my goal weight at 25.2 pounds less than my starting weight. I haven't gained back ALL the weight I lost back in 2008, but I'm also not trying to get back down to my lowest weight, either, because I'm not 25 anymore.
I hope I will stick with it. I know I have a tendency to be really gung-ho in the early going of any project, and this one is particularly easy with the big loss in my first week, but I hope I'll maintain my enthusiasm even as it slows down. Because even if I did lose 6.4 pounds every week (omg I know that's a terrible idea, this is JUST an example), it would still be over a month to get to my goal. It's going to be a while before I look and feel the way I want to again. I just hope that I can continue to see progress and feel good about it. I guess if I'm doing one pound a week, I've got about 19 weeks to go. I hope I can average better than that, but I'm trying to be realistic...19 weeks from now is...August 10th. Yeah, I'll totally be hitting my goal while I'm at Falcon Ridge, and then the week after at an all-inclusive resort in Mexico. Ha. Well, maybe I can do it in 17 weeks.
I lost 6.4 pounds in a week.
I think part of that is because with my parents visiting, I was overeating, and had probably ballooned up a little extra just before my weigh-in. I was healthy last week; it's not like I starved myself. I ate my full allowance of points every day and used up the entire weekly allowance, also. So I'm really pleased.
But I also know that I can't expect anything close to this moving forward, and I'll have to be happy with a pound or so next time I weigh in. I'll be disappointed if I have a gain this week, but I'll still be down from where I started (barring something crazy!), and I'm just going to keep going. But I'm hopeful. I set my goal weight at 25.2 pounds less than my starting weight. I haven't gained back ALL the weight I lost back in 2008, but I'm also not trying to get back down to my lowest weight, either, because I'm not 25 anymore.
I hope I will stick with it. I know I have a tendency to be really gung-ho in the early going of any project, and this one is particularly easy with the big loss in my first week, but I hope I'll maintain my enthusiasm even as it slows down. Because even if I did lose 6.4 pounds every week (omg I know that's a terrible idea, this is JUST an example), it would still be over a month to get to my goal. It's going to be a while before I look and feel the way I want to again. I just hope that I can continue to see progress and feel good about it. I guess if I'm doing one pound a week, I've got about 19 weeks to go. I hope I can average better than that, but I'm trying to be realistic...19 weeks from now is...August 10th. Yeah, I'll totally be hitting my goal while I'm at Falcon Ridge, and then the week after at an all-inclusive resort in Mexico. Ha. Well, maybe I can do it in 17 weeks.