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Seriously obsessed with Hayes Carll lately. His music is incredibly twangy, kind of bluesy-country. I just find it soothing. I've been listening to a youtube mix of his stuff at work all morning.
Things are going reasonably well, I guess? I'm feeling pretty good, except for the lingering cough from whatever cold I caught last weekend. I'm seeing progress with WW and my workouts, and I'm feeling pretty good in my clothes again now. I'm down about six pounds in the last month. Would really like to drop another 10, but I'll just do what I can and see what happens. I went to Body Pump last night and pushed myself pretty hard. I wasn't nearly as dead at the end of class as I had been in the past, but then I was pretty sore in the evening -- it felt good, in its own crazy way. I feel stronger.
Z has been out of town for two weeks. I'll see him again, briefly, but he'll leave for Vegas within a day or so of returning. Then I'll meet up with him there a week later. At the core, we are doing very well. Better than ever, probably. But there's still so much to sort through to determine if our marriage can really work. And that stuff is HARD. I struggle a lot. But I'm hanging in there. We are working on understanding each other, and whether or not we can be what the other needs in a partner. I think we can, but it's frustrating what a slow process it can be, especially given that we've been together 7 years already. We should've figured this shit out a long time ago. Better late than never.
So, yeah. I'm feeling generally optimistic, but some things are still really hard. I'm doing what I can. Hugs and kind words are always appreciated.
Things are going reasonably well, I guess? I'm feeling pretty good, except for the lingering cough from whatever cold I caught last weekend. I'm seeing progress with WW and my workouts, and I'm feeling pretty good in my clothes again now. I'm down about six pounds in the last month. Would really like to drop another 10, but I'll just do what I can and see what happens. I went to Body Pump last night and pushed myself pretty hard. I wasn't nearly as dead at the end of class as I had been in the past, but then I was pretty sore in the evening -- it felt good, in its own crazy way. I feel stronger.
Z has been out of town for two weeks. I'll see him again, briefly, but he'll leave for Vegas within a day or so of returning. Then I'll meet up with him there a week later. At the core, we are doing very well. Better than ever, probably. But there's still so much to sort through to determine if our marriage can really work. And that stuff is HARD. I struggle a lot. But I'm hanging in there. We are working on understanding each other, and whether or not we can be what the other needs in a partner. I think we can, but it's frustrating what a slow process it can be, especially given that we've been together 7 years already. We should've figured this shit out a long time ago. Better late than never.
So, yeah. I'm feeling generally optimistic, but some things are still really hard. I'm doing what I can. Hugs and kind words are always appreciated.