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4 pages done. 5 more due tonight. 10 more due before I disconnect on Monday morning. Doable, but bleh. I'm really making it hard on myself by not just charging straight through it all, but I don't feel like it. I had a talk with McKenzie last night about how freelancing does this to me. How it's good that I took a more regular job, where I can clock out and stop caring. Shit, I'm on the clock right now, and I barely have to care. I'll do the work as it comes in but there's hardly ever anything on my plate here that I dread doing or even have trouble with. I love that. I am not someone who craves a challenge in my work. I do crave challenges, but I like that I don't have to rest my career on them, you know? I can fuck up in bridge or board games and oh well, I lose a game. Fucking up when you're getting paid not to is another story. I think I'm putting that in my next cover letter, if I ever have to look for another job. :)
Z and I were discussing how I am one of those people who would choose not to work if I could. It's not that I would spend my time doing nothing productive, I just wouldn't have things like deadlines and mandatory meetings and whatnot. I'd use my time to travel and exercise and craft and learn and rest...I understand how some people really identify with their work and value it and would do it even if they didn't have to...but I'm not one of those people. Actually, I kind of am. I am that way as a writer. It stresses me out and it's not vital income for me, but it's important for me to BE a writer, so I take the work even though I don't really have to. But if I really had enough money that I needed no extra income, I wouldn't take assignments. I would just write my own stuff on my own time and that would be that.
Even if Z got a raise so huge that it covered the money I make now, I would keep my job, and we'd just have more money. I'm not looking to quit working as soon as it's financially feasible, because that would cost even more tradeoffs. Less travel. Less stuff. I'll probably be here for a while. But it's still in my long-term plan to eventually own enough property that I can make my living as a landlord and not have to be anywhere at any given time. Hand over the management to a company, pay my 10%, and cash the checks each month. That's the dream. We'll see.
Z and I were discussing how I am one of those people who would choose not to work if I could. It's not that I would spend my time doing nothing productive, I just wouldn't have things like deadlines and mandatory meetings and whatnot. I'd use my time to travel and exercise and craft and learn and rest...I understand how some people really identify with their work and value it and would do it even if they didn't have to...but I'm not one of those people. Actually, I kind of am. I am that way as a writer. It stresses me out and it's not vital income for me, but it's important for me to BE a writer, so I take the work even though I don't really have to. But if I really had enough money that I needed no extra income, I wouldn't take assignments. I would just write my own stuff on my own time and that would be that.
Even if Z got a raise so huge that it covered the money I make now, I would keep my job, and we'd just have more money. I'm not looking to quit working as soon as it's financially feasible, because that would cost even more tradeoffs. Less travel. Less stuff. I'll probably be here for a while. But it's still in my long-term plan to eventually own enough property that I can make my living as a landlord and not have to be anywhere at any given time. Hand over the management to a company, pay my 10%, and cash the checks each month. That's the dream. We'll see.