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There's been a lot less nothing-doing this weekend than I had originally planned for, but I'm okay with it. I hung out with friends all day yesterday and had an overall fantastic day. I've been taking it slow so far today, but Dave and I are about to go get lunch, and later tonight, Kelly comes in to PDX for a few days. I didn't know until yesterday that she was coming this weekend, but what a happy surprise :) I just wish I wasn't going to be working extra days while she's here. That's a bummer, but we'll find time to rock out, I'm sure.
I've been 30 for several weeks now. It seems to be sticking. Seems I've avoided a major meltdown about my age, but it is something I ponder every day. Whenever it comes into my head, I always have a conversation with myself that goes something like this:
Wow, you're 30. That's like, legit adult. Are you really an adult? Well, kind of. Now when are the orgasms supposed to get better?
I think humans look for milestones in arbitrary things, and they turn out rather anticlimactic. (Heh, no pun intended.) I'm certainly more mature than I was at 22, but then there are plenty of 22-year-olds who are more mature than I'll likely ever be. Now more than ever, I do feel like age is just a number. I'm not ashamed to tell anyone I'm 30, it's just that when it comes up, I'm always struck by a sense of "wow, yeah, holy shit, I am." Getting married is certainly a major milestone for most people who do it, but by the time the marriage actually occurs, the changes that it signifies have really already taken place. You made the commitment upon engagement if not before, and I guess plenty of people still wait for marriage to do things like move in together or have kids or maybe even have sex, but I'd venture that the vast majority of people don't experience much actual change upon marriage. Kids, okay, that's a legitimate change-marking milestone. But not one I expect to experience firsthand, so. It's funny how milestones can be so arbitrary, and also hold so much value. Maybe part of why I don't feel like 30 is a big deal is that I haven't really hit any milestones in a while? I dunno. I feel good. I may be underachieving a bit by some measures, but I'm pretty happy with the status quo, and it's really nice to be down from the ledge I was on for the first 27 years. I'm not complaining.
I've been 30 for several weeks now. It seems to be sticking. Seems I've avoided a major meltdown about my age, but it is something I ponder every day. Whenever it comes into my head, I always have a conversation with myself that goes something like this:
Wow, you're 30. That's like, legit adult. Are you really an adult? Well, kind of. Now when are the orgasms supposed to get better?
I think humans look for milestones in arbitrary things, and they turn out rather anticlimactic. (Heh, no pun intended.) I'm certainly more mature than I was at 22, but then there are plenty of 22-year-olds who are more mature than I'll likely ever be. Now more than ever, I do feel like age is just a number. I'm not ashamed to tell anyone I'm 30, it's just that when it comes up, I'm always struck by a sense of "wow, yeah, holy shit, I am." Getting married is certainly a major milestone for most people who do it, but by the time the marriage actually occurs, the changes that it signifies have really already taken place. You made the commitment upon engagement if not before, and I guess plenty of people still wait for marriage to do things like move in together or have kids or maybe even have sex, but I'd venture that the vast majority of people don't experience much actual change upon marriage. Kids, okay, that's a legitimate change-marking milestone. But not one I expect to experience firsthand, so. It's funny how milestones can be so arbitrary, and also hold so much value. Maybe part of why I don't feel like 30 is a big deal is that I haven't really hit any milestones in a while? I dunno. I feel good. I may be underachieving a bit by some measures, but I'm pretty happy with the status quo, and it's really nice to be down from the ledge I was on for the first 27 years. I'm not complaining.