the pressures of
I always heard about the stress of college apps and all that shit senior year but i didnt think it would really affect me.
and it didddd. I went to my counselor today, my 533,3082938th visit. she already knows my name, first and last, my issues. my grades. Today she was telling me that she was proud of my grades this last grading period. They were definitely hard to get, especially with Psych and Sullivan.
I decided that i want to go to miami-dade for that paralegal program. I think that it's a good start, that'll give me experience, maybe start me off with a job and then i can transfer for more school *yay* and so far everyone i've talked to *adults* thinks it's great. jesse and ms martin even told me they wish they'd thought of that, instead of going directly to a university.
if by some miracle i got into UF, i would go there. but i dont want to go anywhere else. it's either UF or miamidade *wolfson campus* the only problem i have with Miamidade is staying home =/ i dont want rules. curfews. i want to know that i can be allowed to stay out, not come home, be on my own *sort of* that's the point of going away to college HELLOOO. i mean i know i wont stay out till 4 am but i still want to know that i have that right.
so i'm working pretty hard. dont really give a damn about "being part of the greats" i just want to finish this year up good and get out. i'll just miss some friends. and some teachers of course. but just my english teachers i think.
jorge is doing a judging course tomorrow, so he left today. it depresses me a lot. i always miss him and i hate always missing something. one week i got to see him 3 days straight. it's never happened before and i was so happy when i started off my week, very positive. i'm tired of missing. some people dont know how lucky they are, like elyse and julio they can see e/o everyday and they're in dfyit together and they seee each other on weekends. i'd be glued to jorge if i could have that just for one day. but i'm happy. he's amazing, just like he's always been.