and then theres just other times

[jia519]

when i just cant believe he puts up with my crap. i refuse to believe that it originated here. in my head. i just need to see him more. it's never enough. then i go insane. i'm angry. i hate him. i hate him for not calling me when i want him to *it's quite simple to call him myself* but i dont. i hate him for not seeing me. theres a reasonable explanation for every one of my complaints but when im in this mood it doesn't matter. i want him when i want him. i hate schedules,calendars,days and times. fuck that. he doesnt deserve this *because unfortunately it happens every so often*

i feel sorry that he loves me. im a stupid silly girl. but he's stupid for loving me.